salnier

Liar, hypocrite

So now you hate me. It was you who wanted to stay friends, you who wanted to stay on the kid's life . your anxiety has worked me into something I don't see how even you could believe.. I've been working me but as soon as I feel like I'm about to emerge, some thing slaps me back down. I have driven drink twice in my life... Both because I couldn't stay put thinking about you. I've left you alone but for calling you from jail, you didn't even find out about it till the next day yet you publicly attack me? Block me out? (I assume?) What did I do? You confuse the hell out of me what were the weeks after the break up? Why ? What!? Ughhh lost again.

You kept me going in my darkest days but that only delayed then and compounded then with your absence our families merged I miss you. I try so hard to recreate my self but I fall so often