It's a pretty dumb question because it can't be answered, bu still.
Life sucks!
I have thought about commitng suicide since I was 12.
I started geting depressions when I was 16 and havn't had real friends since and girlfriends is only sometihng others have. My father is insane, he tried to commit suicide when I was still a baby and gets pills to stay away from bad thoughts. My fathers father hang him self soon before I got born and more in my family has bad mental problems.
It has not been found out why we feel like we do and that sucks.
Pain that you can't explain. I cut my self, hits the wall, listen to sad music, drown my pain and thoughts in alcohol. Bla bla bla.
I whine and have a lot of selfpitty.
Life really sucks, so why is it so hard to end it?
Because I am standing in greyzone.
Life also gives me good things like the beauty of sunsets, Jazz and blues.
I don't believe that a shrink can help me.
What I need is some good friends, a girlfriend and some drugs to keep the dark clouds away, because they always ruin everything.
I think of death as peace. When you are dead you don't excist any more.
By the way, if you have never excisted, can you then be dead?
I don't expect life to be easy, but I don't understand why life has to be that painfull, that lonely, just that way. Why?