I am a British male, aged 33 and a father of 2 boys [7 and 4.5] and 1 girl [nearly 3]. I read of problems regarding losses of sex drive, less intimacy and maintaining a good sex life, but nothing appears to cover my specific situation. I have a high s/drive, while my girlfriend has none. It is rare that she ever gets turned-on, and if she did, she would ignore it. She has no idea what 'Sex' or 'Intimacy' mean and, although I am possibly the most patient man alive, even I am now totally fed up with feeling unwanted. There are some complicated side-issues, which include (a) She was abused from 6 to 13 yo. [she attended some counselling, but considers the issue 'closed' now] (b) She has never learn to masturbate [ok, not an issue, but masturbation teaches us what we do or do not enjoy, etc.] © She is resentful of talking about the problem [i have raised the issues and attempted discussion more than 20 times over the last 5-6 years.] (d) I was her first proper partner. [Due to fear, the unknown, etc we waited over 6 months for sex] (e) Sex with her is pathetic - she has no idea, nor seems to want one. (f) Of the 10-14 days she is not menstruating, she gets no pleasure from sexual contact for 85-95% of the time. (g) She will not touch me first, ever. [i feel guilty even considering touching her, but try anyway.] (h) Oral is not a consideration. [i am very giving in this area, but get no opportunity, nor any thing offered to me.]
We are the best of friends, have common interests and spend a lot of quality time together. Even so, to raise the subject of our [my?] problem guarantees bad feeling for at least a week, plus prevents any intimacy or attempted intimacy for 2-4 months.
I would leave, but love her too much. I would consider any potential solution, but have tried most things, including ripping my life apart to try to please and support her. I am desperate.