stillinlove90

My ex (we'll call him M for confidentiality purposes) and I dated for a year. We moved in together and lived together for the last 4 months of our relationship. We broke up about a month ago, and overall have disputed our differences and discovered that we COULD potentially be happy together, except for one thing- About 5 years ago, I did some modeling. The photos were topless but covered with at least a hand, bikini, or lingerie. M knew about the photos when we first started dating, but over time, said it hurt more and more as he began to care about me more and more. He also is bothered by my past because I bartended at a place with a corset for a uniform and at a Hooters. He says that it is difficult for him to get past these things of my past and that he probably just "needs time to heal". He feels like he doesn't have anything left in him to fight them anymore right now, even though he misses me. I have spent thousands of dollars in order to get a majority of the photos removed from online, but haven't succeeded completely, and frankly am not sure if I will be able to. M felt paranoid that people would recognize me from the photos, and said that he felt overshadowed by me whenever we went out in public. He said that he knows I did everything to make him feel comfortable, but that he "just might not have it in his DNA to date an ex-model". I am so unhappy right now. It's been a month and all I can do is wait for him to "heal" and for time. Meanwhile, I am so depressed. I have never been one to be this caught up about a relationship, but I truly feel still that he is "the one". I have days where I feel like I'm just slowly dying. Previously being someone who is very into fitness and eating healthy, I can't even bring myself to work out. What on earth do I do? How do I help him? He said that he wishes he knew why it bothered him so much but that he can't figure it out.