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Happy Valentines! NC day 14. Feels a little bit better but its hard. I try to focus on healing. Progress in the gym is good. Lost 10kg since 17th december. I cant get the thought of her dating someone today at valentines out of my head. Today I have to be strong. And everybody keep on being strong and remain NC. It's the best for us dumpees.... Take Care

Good morning Day 6. Yesterday when I finished work I started crying in the car. I couldn't control it, I think I held it in for some days. It wasn't the same anymore, it was sadness mixed with anger. Not against her. Against myself, why was my brain tricking me into contacting her. I made my begging and pleading for 2 days after the break up. I met her couple of times, tried to act as I was cool and nothing happened. And we slept with each other. But seriously, I was just hurting myself. I've understood that contacting here will not benefit me in anyway. But still it's hard. I'm a person that likes to have different scenarios and work hard for them. Logic is the key. But in this situation logic doesn't work. It's sad to say that time is the only thing that will help. My brain still don't want to let her go. Let the hope of her coming back go. I know that I need to work on me for myself. But I can not NOT see her coming back when I'm back and found myself again. Sorry for writing wired stuff, I struggle with talking with friends because it feels so monotonous talking about the same thing and always end up with NC. I know that's the only way but still I want to talk... And that feels weird

NC day 5. Don't know really how I feel. Haven't cried in a good while. But yesterday at the gym I started to get small panic attacks but I managed to not break. I packed a bag and went over to a friends place and slept there. Felt so much better with company. Yesterday I bought a big calendar. I think it will help me keep busy. I'm trying to fill it with stuff. Today it's Friday doing the laundry and I'm taking it easy this weekend. Some friends invited me over for some movies. Still miss her like crazy and miss our dog.

Thank you for your answer. Yes I guess I have to keep my head up and continue work out, go to work and build myself up. Watching great series before I go to sleep helps me a lot.

Sounds great. I'm playing a lot of guitar too. Also played when I was younger but haven't played for a while. Does it feel better after 24days? Is it a roller coaster or does it feel Better and better ?

NC day 3, Today was a ok day. Still thinking about her a lot, Its hard to maintain NC but as seen on this forum it's very effective, I will not deny, I still feel I'm not only doing it for myself, still got the small hope of her getting back. But I try to be positive and realize it's for healing myself. Just came home from some friends, had a great time, now I'm going to watch some movies and go to sleep. Work tomorrow, looking forward to complete this week and continue NC. Tomorrow day 4!!!!!

How can you be so stupid throwing away everything we had. For what seriously!?? Wish I could open your eyes, so you could see what we had was very special. It's your loss, you made this choice. Im pretty sure you Will regret this so much one day...

Hey Everybody, This forum is great and it helped me a lot. It's around 1 month since the break up. She moved out pretty fast. Had some stuff left and I tried to solve it in a mature way so we had LC and met couple of times. Slept with each other 4 times. It felt good in the moment, but I was only tricking my mind. So Sunday was last time we spoke, I left the last stuff at her friends place. And went NC. Day 3 tomorrow, I miss her and it's hard, but you guys inspire me. I'm a great guy and I don't think she knows what she is missing. So I'm looking forward for the improved version of myself... NC is the way to go!!

Madforyoy: I'm actually at the first day. I had LC With my ex during these last days. This morning she actually left the keys to the apartment in my mailbox. I got some tips. About Facebook and all other social media. Somebody wrote a tip that I think can be useful. I didn't apply it yet because I found an compromise. 95% of my Facebook activity is on my smartphone. So I deleted the apps and logged out. It was hard the first days. The tip was giving your password to a good friend or family member and let them change it without telling you the new one. And yes it's New Year's Eve. I haven't read your story. But seriously I know it's hard to think this way. But I helps me a little little bit. If he wants to get laid with somebody short after your break up. Does he really deserves someone like you? Now I'm talking about the person you are right now and have been in the relationship. What about this great amazing and stronger person you will be in couple of weeks of NC. The confidence will help you.

I accept the challenge. I posted my story but did not get many replies. Maybe it was a little bit to long Right now we are ending it at a good note. Everything happened ao fast. Got engaged 10th December. Came home from vacation 17th. Broke up the same day. Celebrated Christmas without each other and tomorrow celebrating New Years on separate ways. She told me that I could contact her whenever I wanted if I wanted to talk. But NC is the way I will go. She really needs to feel what she is loosing. And I really want to see a stronger version of myselve because today I really felt how amazing I am. Day 1 tomorrow, she is leaving the keys.