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Day 2 I finally managed to get over day 1 and today is another day. I woke up and realized, ahain for the nth time, I want him back and cried again. I keep checking my phone to see if there are any new messages from him and I even wonder why I keep my hopes up. I have deactivated my fb just so I won't be tempted to stalk his mutual friends again and again just to check up on him.

God, I miss you so much and Everyday is so hard for me. Even though I find time to be busy, thoughts of you still haunt my mind. I can't stop hoping, thinking that you'll come back just as you did before. I can't stop thinking of you and her and it hurts me so much. I cry less everyday but it doesn't mean zi hurt less. How could you be happier without me? How could you not miss me at all like you told Yuan? How could you be so indifferent and cold? Yesterday was supposed to be our 49th month together snd I couldn't sleep properly at all. I miss your face, your voice. I miss your hugs and the way you cuddle me. You promised you wouldn't leave me and yet here I am facing all these alone. I keep checking the time to see kf you have come home or still doing overtime at work. I just wish things were back to normal with us because you left me so suddenly. I keep dreaming of you but mow this is reality and I'm alone after four years, I'm alone.

Day 1 The day has just began for me. It's been two weeks since the breakup and while we haven't talked at all, I kept finding out tidbits of information about him from mutual friends and stalked him like there was no tomorrow. Because of my stalking, I found out the hard and painful way that he was happier without me (like a breath of fresh air according to him) and not missing me at all. OUCH. I saw pictures of him tagged by his officemates and he genuinely looks happy while here I am feeling awful. Today is supposed to be our 49th month together and I barely slept thinking if I didn't find out he cheated on me, he would still be greeting me. God, I feel like crying. I thought the pain would lessen by now but everyday I still miss him whereas he's so happy without me