Day 2: of starting NC AGAIN! (or very LC as we are on friendly terms, but its NC from my side so far!)
Signed up to some emails from some ex back site by Kevin Thompson, got these qs from him today which I am going to answer honestly.
-Are you still trying to get back with him?
Kind of YES. I don't want the all of the old relationship back, I know it may not be possible. I don't want to jump into it if given the opportunity, I just need to EXPLORE this again. To see if from both sides if we feel something strong. Like attraction with a potential future. And if he has also matured in this time or still going to behave the same... then I probably would have to resist the temptation to settle for him only to be dissatisfied.
-Did you start dating other people in the meantime? Yes, I met up with 2 guys. One was a friend, another randomer. Both date were fruitless and I felt nothing.
-Are you going to the gym (or some other physical activity) and taking up new hobbies? I am trying, but nothing revolutionary. Although the one month I joined the gym I felt great about myself and body and I will be joining again in due time. I'm glad Im making some positive changes because it would be a turn off for both myself to stay the same old person and for him too. I don't know. I have to do this for myself.
-Would you say you are still obsessing over your ex? Yes.. which is why I had to resort to NC again
-Did you apply the no contact rule? Yes.. but I broke it! So im starting again
-If you are still obsessed with your ex, do you feel this is a good way to continue living or you should try to change it? Its terrible but I know it is partly due to the fact I am on summer vacation now, as soon as I start working again next week I will be busy with my life so I think it will be easier to forget him and I will have less time to obsess over him.
-Have you made any effort in moving on? I have tried and failed. Hence came back to square one, obsessing.. and applying NC again.
-Did you accept the fact that you might never get back with him and embrace the fact that there are endless opportunities out there to find happiness and love?
As hard as I thought it would be, knowing HE is happy without me and also said we are not the right people for each other shows HE has hope we will be fine. SO I too have hope that there is truth in his words. I don't know when or if anytime soon but in the future I do see myself happy without him and maybe someone else. I can accept I will be happy but I would prefer to know I could be happy and we could be in love (me & him) but I will see what God brings us and what our fate/destiny is.
-Would you consider yourself a happy person? Yes, Im pretty positive most of the time in many walks and aspects on life. But I can have really low points and down days where I am extremely cold and bitter. I really need to work on myself and set myself free from this misery I am choosing to endure. I hope its worthwhile.
The thing is I know I am capable of moving on, I am just worried that when comes back or realises it might be too late and I will be so over him that my doors will have closed. I wanted to leave things open ended so its possible to reconcile but I realise that is stupid. because it should be a new thing, I should have my defences up and my judgement unbiased and at its clearest so I don't make stupid mistakes in selecting who I decide to share myself with in a relationship.
SO here are the Qs! Copy paste answer and comment! looking forward to hearing you updates you lovely folks! xoxoxo
-Are you still trying to get back with him?
-Did you start dating other people in the meantime?
-Are you going to the gym (or some other pysical activity) and taking up new hobbies?
-Would you say you are still obsessing over your ex?
-Did you apply the no contact rule?
-If you are still obsessed with your ex, do you feel this is a good way to continue living or you should try to change it?
-Have you made any effort in moving on?
-Did you accept the fact that you might never get back with him and embrace the fact that there are endless opportunities out there to find happiness and love?
-Would you consider yourself a happy person?