I understand exactly what you're going through, and I don't understand it either. I know it'll be a rather long time, if ever, before I could contemplate a relationship with someone else, and it only took my ex two weeks! Granted, he'd known this girl for about a year beforehand, but knowing what kind of person she is, it's like an extra stab in the back. She's super immature, a brat, and when she has an emotional meltdown, she blames it on her hormones, instead of admitting that she simply lost it. When we were dating, he told me that he had the better girl, and while I know I made mistakes, it really grinds my gears that he may think this girl is a better fit for him (apparently she's good to him, whatever that means). They've already fought, and there was a point where he thought it wouldn't last (that way maybe 2 months in). Apparently things got better, but everyone else steers well clear of her- including guys, because she was desperately looking for pretty much anyone before they started dating. I don't get it.
Had the worst night last night that I've had in a while, where I just fell apart and bawled- I haven't done that in a few weeks. Sometimes I wish that I could just rent a house somewhere else, snag a couple of friends, and spend the summer "rehabbing" in a place with no memories.
I've done a lot of contemplating as well, but for some reason, when I go to type it up here, I lose the desire to bring it up.
Such begins day 4.