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  1. Shinobie
    Just that staement right there states how this world is complete bull.People born good looking that did nothing for it at all.We live in a crappy world with probably 92%+ of it being full of a bunch of shallow, phony, jerks.This is true and I try too accept it.
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    I cope with lonliness by cutting and hurting myself.
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    You are saying great things but i am confused myself... I cant just choose to be happy...I am bipolar so my moods change sparatically so ill be really happy one second than insanely sad the next.I've expericed what ive had and i cant be happy...People set me off and make me so mad that like i do things to myself like gouge at my arms with my finger nails and cut myself open and like hurt myself by punching myself and i cannot control it at all and i get so angry at myself and everything.Thats my way of self harm i guess.You make it sound so easy yet i dont feel how easy it is in the ways I've experienced life.I don't know how i could possibly be happy when im such a nice person yet i constantly get used for my kindness and treated like crap.Even by friends.I care so much about others yet no one gives a damn about myself cause im just someone that is used by everybody and anybody in this stupid fricken world.Put down or talked to about somoene else's problems.Like people constantly complaing about their bad days or something stupid like that.Yet i never complain one bit too them in real life ever i just keep it all inside.Id just like too see what the world would be like without us really kind people.See how everything would be without nice people because i know there are very few.Everyday i live it seems so pointless to go on.Nobody cares.I care so much about people in this world yet it means nothing in this corrupt human society and people like me get treated like we are weird or stupid.
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    I've learned too give up on this forum for myself cause i felt so stupid.Now i just play wow 24/7 every damn day.Just waiting for the one undefiable day i decide to kill myself and leave this world of being a fricken idiot and not standing the people within it.This thing i like to call a "life".
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    Ya teacup the only reason i guess i played these games so much to begin with when i lost my job is because i became more depressed and wanted to get away from the world.Sure if had a gf i would definitely spend more time with her then this stupid computer.The reason i believe im so attached to it sometimes is yah i do have a descent amount of friends i can out and do stuff with but when i have nothing to do this is what i do.I have never had a girlfriend and dont think ill have one anytime soon so i would probably not be a person to assume what all males do since i have never been in that situation.
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    a.0 b.0 c.always been single I have nothing else to say man im 3 for 3 on nothing im fricken awesome lol woot what the heck
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    k well for the last 3 months since i lost my job ive been addicted to world of warcraft doing nothing but it and maybe went out 2 times with friends.I have finally gotten fed up with it and being so addicted that i am now quitting and now i have the sudden urge to go back outside again and i feel happier.Just wanted to express my happiness to some people since this problem felt like such a burden im so glad im going out to my friends house tonight and doing like used too.
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    I suffer from depression myself and i am bi-polar.None of my friends or anyone really knows how i feel.I react to things in quite a bad manner since i have highs and lows taking things rather to seriously or personally.Ya since ive lost my job ive left the house maybe 3 times in like 2 months.Nice post and thnx but i personally dont know how to cope with anything i suffer from really.
  9. Shinobie
    Well if u say the girl u went out with was really hot.Then that probably means that you are hot i dont get what the problem is with getting a new gf or a girl too please your needs you cant control.
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    No worries iwannaknow coming from a guys point of view i have it the same.I have my best friend that i did a lot with.We would be at the fair messing around and stuff and hed go over and talk to some girls and id stand off to the side and they would act like i wasnt even there and would not look at me once except that one "get away" look or somethin.Hes like really hot to girls just like your friend is to guys.One question do u try and get in the conversation?Maybe there might be some guys that like u or somethin in those groups.bethany gave a great thing of advice.U should maybe talk to your friend and have her try and help you and not be closed up.Ill try that with my really good friend if he doesnt get sent back to the marines as soon as expected and see how he reacts and see how they think of it.Although a guy might be differen on those ways of thinkin.
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    I dont really mind what height a girl is but for some reason the quite short girls are really cute for some reason sometimes i do not no why.
  12. Shinobie
    Happy birthday and hope the day is very good for you!
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    I personally thought that was nicely stated dre.Dont think many could say it as well i agree.
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    You don't know this Shinobie, you could be attracting a whole bunch of girls unknowingly. One of my friends always tells me how many girls I get looks from when we're walking around, and I am completely clueless. Unless you look every girl in the face as you pass them by you're not going to know. But that's sorta desperate, if you catch a girl looking, try to hold her eye contact, if it's long enough say hi. Nah dude i dont get that.I get froma couple of a my friends jks that im bad looking so no help there.
  15. Shinobie
    I Would have to say lips.Although dont listen to me is just a feeling i have since i havent kissed before so its prolly a irrelevant answer sorry just trying to give my input.
  16. Shinobie
    In my mind now when i look at a girl.I like at them for who they are.I dont judge those parts of their bodies.Im not like all guys who dont have control over their hormones.Although these girls do have revealing clothing making it hard for some people to keep it under control.
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    Ok im just sayin cause people always say it gets better.Before i got a good job and it was slightly ok but not what i hoped.Good thing come up and my really good friend comes back from marines.Then i lose my really good job due to some stupid rich people who bought the place.But when my friend does come we go out and have fun with friends only for me to truly find out that anything he evr said about wanting to love someone before sex was a big lie.Talking about with another friend how they really need to find some girls too have sex with before he goes or find more.And i ahvent done anything with him the time hes been here after and i feel like he wont call me up or anything when hes here.Im not going to college like all my other friends cause i cant afford it without a job.I still havent had a chance for a gf cept for one but now its gone since im out of my job since she might of got a job there.Im having insomnia probs.I go to bed at like 9 in the morning and wake up at 6 or 7 at night and it pisses me off.Life is just so pointless and empty and i just wanan know how it truly gets better?Cause i dont know at all because its been the same way for a long time.Im sorry im feeling myself fall back down into a depression and just wanna have some things too think of that might brighten my days iono.Cause people say that it does but i dont see it.
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    I usually attract one girl if im lucky out of the blue but i usually dont attract any.
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    Drugs are stupid all of them to me at least.Whats the point of being a slave to something?O something just to waste my money on once again.Sister comes to try to bum money off me now and she does weed.But im like hell nah not supporting that cycle of nonsense.Just my personal opinion.Why do something that controls you?Even though yes i know weed isnt clearly as bad as the rest.
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    I have just been wondering if any of these actually work?Cause im trying them out right now but havent been using them way too long.So my question is have any of these medicines worked for any of u guys or anybody u have known?Cause i personally do not want to get the crap u get from the doctors.Cause im trying to save up enough money for a car and college.
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    Ok well iono.U say that the feeling u get from what you are reading is that nice guys think they can have sex with a girl if they are nice?No thats not what a guy like me does if im put in the nice category.I have started to find sex disgusting with how many people completely detroy it.I never look at sex as the main object of a relationship.Ya and btw dont bash me about that i dont care if i havent been in a relationship this is how i personally i see how i would treat one.Most males think no sex then goodbye to you.If u love the person that bullcrap doesnt matter one bit what they want is what you should accept.None of this "o you dont give me sex then ill leave you" Its utter nonsense too me.
  22. Shinobie
    Dont think those ways kyo man.You are a great person no matter the way u look.U dont have to look as good as that guy to feel special.Be in tune with yourself and try to feel as happy with yourself as you can.I know in your situation its really hard man i dont know what its like.i read your posts man and your a great person by what I take in thats what i get from it.
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    Dont worry your one of those people just like me laura and dead eyes to im exactly like u im crazy around my friends and mess around have fun dude but im mute around other people but its not that im serious im more shy.Which can be serious iono.But ya i too never vent one thing too my friends and felt a little weird posting here at first but got used to it.Dont worry laura there are many people like u.We are all just the really closed people that dont let anything out and hide our feelings like u said.
  24. Shinobie
    Im bipolar and trust me it feels great after awhile when u feel better and function normally it makes u feel so happy and like you were when u didnt have the problems with it.Only one piece of advice i have to give u.It sometimes takes awhile to get the right kind of medication for people for depression.My first made me very manic and made the downs even worse.So if you feel like your first is not working after awhile then u should insist on a new medication.What i did and my next worked.And i wish u luck on your way towards feeling normal and happier.
  25. Shinobie
    Dont mind that you will experience that many times in your life.My best friend would always get girls and attention from them because he looks really attractive to them i guess.A lot of us experience that in our lives.O and btw all guys are not attracted to blondes.I personally dont mind what hair color they are but i am attracted to like brunetes or girls with dark hair.And my best friend did like girls who were brunette and the girl he dated before he left had black hair.I agree with what darkblue says too.Reconsider if you feel your not ready or mature enough.Just to say my friends mom had him when she was 14 and her life is a mess now just for an example if u go that far.
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