Mulder68

I'm am idiot. I emailed you yesterday and asked 'why?' Again! Of course no answer, I don't exist in your eyes. I wish you would disappear, stop contacting our friends, they think you are a b*stard too but are too polite to tell you. I hope you are hurting because she won't take you back, if she does I hope you are as miserable as before. I hope you miss the fire service, I am lucky I am still here living the passion we shared every day. I know you know I won an award 'the complete firefighter' you couldn't even drop me a text to say congratulations. Today, I've promised myself' is the day I let go. So goodbye Jake, I'm a nice enough person but I hope you die a sad lonely old man.

I don't know why you fell out of love with me a day after asking me why I was so beautiful in the morning and you wouldn't want to live without me. You said you still loved your ex wife but six months later I hear you are not back with her. You know I was terribly depressed and tried to end my life but you never contacted me once. I still love you so much and miss the old you every day. You told me this time last year that this valentines day would be wonderful. You lied to me, you lied about everything. I don't know who you are and why you became this callous monster. I hope your day will be as lonely as mine tomorrow.