jalways44

Day 9 12:00 am Having a tough time tonight. I find myself thinking a lot about him tonight. Saw him on gchat, no message from him. Dont' know why I even thought he would send me one. Trying to stay really busy, traveling for work a lot, working out 2 hours a day to get my body right. I really really miss him. It would be so easy for me to text him but it would also make me look weak and i'm really trying to heal this time and break this addicton from him. I have been going strong for 8 days, but tonight I feel really really sad. I miss him a lot tonight, more than the past 8 days. I miss talking to him/I miss everything, but I know I have to get over him to find someone better. We want different things in life, I want the marriage/relationship thing because my career is set, he wants to build his career and doesn't want marriage yet so I had to let him go. Hopefully I get back to my strong self soon. Tonight though I feel really sad.

Day 8 Feeling really sad right now. The most we've gone without talking is 11 days, i'm on day 8. I have to say I am very sad right now. Makes me think he has already forgotten about me. Honestly I feel if he doesn't contact me within 30 days then it's def. time to let go.

A friend told me about this challenge, I accept this challenge. I am on Day 6 today. I feel sad but know this is the best for me. I am fed up with him treating me like crap. I know my emotions will be like a roller coaster, I will feel sadder one day than the other. Today is hard, I keep thinking about the good times we had and I keep thinking did he ever even care about me. I know I have to get over him though. Sooo today is Day 6.