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  1. 80th day of complete NC. Must admit I felt bad when you left this country without saying as much as goodbye since we won't meet ever again but hey, that's who you are : a selfish and horrendous person who doesn't care for anything except herself. Nope, we won't see each other again but I'm sure you're happy about that. You probably forgot my name or simply rewrote our history together in order to present yourself as the poor and innocent victim to all of your friends who mean so much for me and anyway, in your views, more than me. In fact, you always diminished me, made me feel worthless compared to some dudes and girls you just randomly met at bars. Yep, that's the way you are, selfish bit**. But I also admit I feel better now, knowing you didn't contact me. Why ? Because It proved once again who the real "you" is. Have fun mating with all of those "friends", hope you rot in Hell one day.
  2. More than 8 months since I last saw you. 2.5 month since I last "conversed" with you. People say only good memories remain and flood you after a while. This "while" is not on sight for the moment. What truly remains ? My grudge. Memories of going through Hell and back for you. Memories of your selfishness. Memories of the way you treated me. Memories of this look in your eyes, memories of your lies, memories of the fact that you never loved me once and used me. Memories of your laziness, memories of your lack of respect towards me. Memories of your cheats and how you put the blame on me back then, like the selfish bit** that you are. Memories of the pain I felt when you made me feel so miserable - not even coming to my city in order to see me when I was really down, stressed-out and stuck at work while you could take your holidays whenever you wanted. I lost my father almost one year ago, after 7 years of illness. Sad, in a way, because he became ill almost when we got together - he was a wonderful father, a wonderful man and I chose to pursue my career back then instead of staying at home because I wanted to invest in you, in us. You left me after his death, for another dude who you were probably banging (and others) when you held my hand during the burial. No, you didn't simply leave me - you spit on me and took everything right when I needed you the most. A good timing, after all, I was weakened so you were able to perform your art of lying more efficiently. People, WHO DOES THAT ? Just rot in Hell.
  3. You left this country. Didn't even care to send me a goodbyt letter. You gossiped and rewrote our history together in front of your friends. You never cared about me, never cared about anyone else but you. But hey ! Who cares ? You don't even remember my name after all. 8 years. You made me waste 8 years for nothing. Not even a goodbye. You have no decency. You're quite simply a horrendous person. Hope you rot in Hell. Humm, feels fine
  4. I'm waiting for my plane at the airport, the last time I did it was to be with you. I remember how happy I was to see you, how I ignored the way you treated me after not seeing me for 3-4 weeks : you gave me nothing. The only thing that mattered to you was you. You, you and always you. You didn't care about me at all and I trusted you even if somewhere deep inside, I knew you were lying. I knew you didn't care. And still, I went on. I loved you and you just didn't care about me. Today I remember all the pain you inflicted on me while saying you cared for me after this break-up. I remember all those nights crying, seeing you in front of me, feeling you, smelling your odor. I wanted to touch you one last time, to hug you, I wanted to talk to you, to laugh, to smile, to make projects, to keep on making you happy. I lost myself because of you. I was willing to give up everything for you, you were my love. I lost myself and I found myself back. And you won't ever see it. You don't deserve it. Just leave this country and disappear. You made it already clear that I was nothing to you and that I should treat you like a.dead person. And that I will my Dear, that I will.
  5. Thinking of you today, my first day of holidays. I have been thinking ? How long has it been for you that you didn't feel anything for me, how long since you decided that I would simply be a tool, a nice guy suffering from this LDR with you which you enjoyed so much it made you cheat on me numerous times ? That I would be a mean to meet your selfish end, someone who pays your rent, your energy bills, your taxes and even give you some presents because I loved you for real. And you didn't. You lied since day one, 8 years ago. You never felt anything for me, never loved me. Never. You are quite simply the single most atrocious individual I have ever met. And I fell in love with you. Sad.
  6. It's the end of the line when you quote yourself, I know but really, HOW THE HELL CAN SOMEONE DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS ?
  7. Yes this is one of those days. I think about you. Can't say I miss you, no, it's not that simple. I don't miss you. However, I think about all the s*** I went through to give our couple a chance, everything I did for you, what I sacrificed for you because I truly loved you. I will never love someone like I did with you. It's sad but true. I know it. See I lost my father in august, you attended the funeral with me, you wept with me, for me. While you were probably banging another guy. It was all a lie, dream. I lied to myself when I took you back twice. I lied to myself when I believed you were a good person. In truth, you are not. And what I can't forgive myself is that I suffered a lot more because of losing a selfish b**** like you than my father. What the hell people To be fair, I don't wish you well. I hope you'll suffer in your new life, I hope you experience drama, sadness, Suffering. It won't be for the moment I'm sore but I truly hope you do. I hope you cheat on this new guy or that he cheats on you. I hope he makes your life miserable. Not for getting back with you, mind you. But simply for thé sake of what you made me endure, all those lies about loving me and wanting to be with me. No it's not okay to break-up this way, Sorry. I won't ever forgive you. I won't ever see you again. I hope you exerience just an ounce of what I endured because of you. You're a tiny, selfish, little girl. And you acted like it. Should have seen it coming. Shame on me.
  8. Wasn't sure I would ever post on this thread but here I am : A female friend of my girlfriend broke up with her man after 8 years, then they drifted apart for some times (years). After this time and much abuse from men, they reconciled. This was 4 months ago. Now she is pregnant ! Just discovered it yesterday ^-^
  9. In one month, you'll be gone. You'll be leaving for Canada, for your new life. We will never see each other again. I won't be there to tell you goodbye and while I wanted to for a couple of months, you definitely destroyed every little bit of our relationship in a few weeks. Most of all, what you destroyed was not only our love, it also was our friendship. The one and sole thing we could eventually have salvaged from this mess. In fact you wanted to. No, you pretended you wanted to. That's more like it. I did not. My friends, my real friends are not liars, my friends are not cheaters, my friends care about me and I care about them, my friends are there when I need them and I would do everything for them, my friends just don't say f**** it all and leave without notice, my friends don't spend their time complaining about me and how unbearable I am to others, especially others who don't know me. My friends apologize and I feel the need to apologize to them when I hurt them. My friends are my friends. You have none of their qualities. Sorry. I told you goodbye for good on may 18th of this year, by erasing everything from us, from you, and blocking you. You didn't even tell me goodbye in return. Further proof of your selfishness. Have fun in Canada. That's all that matters to you anyway : Your well-being. And nothing else. Ciao bella !
  10. Look what you miss today, look what I achieved because you gave me a new-born strength to go on on, whatever the cost, look : Fit like never before, new clothes, new style, new smile on my face, newfound confidence; New girlfriend who actually CARES for me and has no trouble talking about her emotions; My book is finally finished, I will publish it this year !; The University took interest in me : I will teach there in autumn, for graduates, in my speciality. What a challenge ! Being a lawyer and teaching at the same time. Wonderful feeling; Moving to Berlin next year, everything is moving in the right direction. And this was all achieved IN SPITE of you. And I did all by myself. Too bad for you. You won't even know a thing about who I am today. Ever.
  11. Until she realizes that marriage is the one thing that makes her drink Lol, that's what I call persistance !
  12. I agree with you on all of this : no one knows your story better than yourself and this forum is not meant, in my opinion, to judge anyone or anything. I was simply implying that all opinions are valid, especially when they are backed-up by experience. One need to consider them for what they are - opinions. Rest of the work is to be done by yourself, of course ! You see, I learned so much about my situation when I finally decided to share my story with others. Some had it wrong, some had it right. It was for me to decide with my heart and my knowledge of my relationship. And, to be fair, hard truths were sometimes the ones I was willingly ignoring. So, in this grand scheme of life, I value all of them ;-)
  13. Just my two cents about this even if it doesn't concern me. Sometimes, hard truth is a good thing in order to process our emotions better. Not all break-up are done in respectful ways (see my story...) and sometimes, being faced with different opinions about our situations is pretty useful. See, I never talked about my couple's problems with anyone before my break-up because I thought that it was nobody's business and that everything could be solved and explained IN our couple and not AROUND. This was obviously wrong. I think that Sharky's experience is valuable and her opinions evenly so. Hard truth is just that, "hard" to face, "hard" to process and "hard" to get over. One cannot fully understand a situation when one is knee-deep in it. And just like Caesar said : Si vis Pacem, para bellum. Prepare for the worst, this applies to relationship also, alas.
  14. Day 10 Some details about our relationship : We broke up on December 14th, after a month of "break" (she wanted that break but, really, I think she essentially tried to "soften" this break-up by delaying it... ) and a 7 1/2 years relationship... On December 14th, she mailed me that she wanted to break up and that she was absolutely sure of her decision. I didn't beg, didn't panic and quite simply sent her a letter explaining that I realized many things and was still in love with her (even wrote her that I cannot be her friend because, for me, it's all or nothing). I learned from a mutual friend about 5 days later that she is already with another guy and went to Montreal with him for some holidays (he lives there)... I felt betrayed, extremely hurt and went NC from this point. I never told her that I'm aware of her new relationship and she never told me... She e-mailed me twice since then (quite friendly...) and I don't understand why... I texted her one last "merry Christmas" on December 24th and NC from there.
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