CleoC

December has been such a horrible month. Since you've told me that you were dating someone else, everything has been hell. I wish I've never met you because all this pain is killing me. You used to be so sweet with me and I was so sure of your love. I don't know what happened in the middle. It's been 3 months and I can't move on. I was doing ok until you called me and told me you met someone else. You met someone a month after leaving me and already had sex with her. I thought I was more important to you. You truly dissapointed me. You used to say I was the love of your life, the person you would die for, and the person you wanted to marry and have kids with. Then, you left me and started dating a new woman. I just feel so stupid, I don't understand how I could believe you. A person that says all that stuff doesn't run to another person like you did. I feel I'll never be loved again. Nobody would love a depressed girl with an awful body who can't get over his first boyfriend. You were the only person that ever wanted to be with me and now you don't want that anymore. I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up again. I feel I can't trust anyone anymore. I trusted you and you left me like I didn't mean anything to you. I'm so tired of crying and feeling miserable. I was such a nice girlfriend and for what? for being dumped like this? I don't deserve this. I have plans for the future but I feel like I will never be happy again. I will never find someone that I would feel that confortable with. Someone who shares so many things with me. I'm so shy so I never will have that conection with anyone else. What we had is so hard to find. I wish I could disappear.

Day 4 of NC. He left me three months ago and I always broke nc. After trying anything to get him back with no results, I let him go. At least I know I tried. One of the last times we talked he told me he is with another woman and that hurted me a lot so I've started NC for good.

I miss your hugs so much. I was doing ok today till I remembered how you used to hug me. I miss you so much. And knowing that another woman is receiving your hugs and your kisses makes me want to die. I try to move on but it's so hard. You are the person I wanted for my life and now everything is so black. It's been almost 3 months since you left me and I just don't know what else to do to put my life in order. I miss your body and our conversations. I miss having that conection with another human being. I'm really sad. I need you to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be okay. I need to find peace. I don't know how much time it takes to get over a person but for me it's been 3 months and everything is still black. I wish I could find the love I deserve.

I miss you so much today. Doesn't matter what I do, all I see in my head is our memories. Every moment we had together. I remember how much you used to love me. I always felt like I was sooo loved and it felt awesome. Now I feel that I wasn't important to you and I just want to die every single day. All I can think about is you and your new girl. I don't deserve all this pain