jane4221

I know now that you were a monster. that what you did to me was the worst thing imaginable. It will take me time to know that is the truth every moment, because for now it hurts too much to know that the person I loved most in the world did this to me. What you did to our children, our family. You were a monster. I loved you so much, and never knew you were a monster.

Are you OK? I have a feeling you´re sad, but don´t want to contact you in case you´re not. I miss you terribly today. Terribly. I wish, wish, wish that you´d call me and tell me you miss me too. All of this is utter and complete stupidity and nonsense and has no logical reasoning behind it. You were always so stupid. This is by far the dumbest thing you have ever done.

I was laying in the sun imaging you all day next to me. I am sorry life tore us apart. I never thought it could. I was too certain. Life without you is vacant. I can virtually feel you next to me all the time. Your hand in mine. I know I said some terrible things, but I still love you. I didn´t mean it when I said I didn´t. I´ll always be your girl, just like I promised. I know you felt me today. Felt my hand. I know you did. Time, space, even God won´t separate us. Not really honey. You´re part of me. The best part.

Please come home honey

Today was awful. got a new passport and i have to fill out my next of kin. My next of kin has always been you...who is it now? The wee man is crying for home and his Daddy. Something inside me is in such incredible pain and all I want is for you to hug me. I wish you could see how senseless this is. We should be together. Our family should be together. I know you are crying too. I miss you so much I can practically taste you in the air around me. Please, please, please come back to me. Come back honey.

I´m really missing you honey. I can´t believe this has happened. Please come home. I want to cuddle up to you so much. Today I was so sad and you weren´t there to cuddle me through it. I am so sorry all this is going on, but I know you´ll be with me one day again. I know it honey. I love you too much for it to be any other way xx

Oh honey. It's so weird not talking to you every day. You told me when you left that heaven was just you and me on a cloud. Meet me there in your dreams tonight. I know you are lost. I love you. I am always with you. I know you can hear me xxxx

I am missing you so much tonight that my heart hurts. I know you told me that you still loved me desperately and just needed time and space. I know you meant it then, but I am so afraid that you will block me out again. I miss you. I so miss you. Please call me. Please be OK.

I woke up this morning and realised that we no longer live together and that this was the first morning with you in your new home. I miss you so much. I wish that life circumstanced had not come between us. I am here. Find me. Find me every night and I will be there to meet you. If only you'd known there was never anything you could say that would make me stop loving you. There was always only you. Only you, my darling Xxx

I miss you. I wish you would explain to me why you left. If I try and speak to you you send such cold and horrible texts. I feel like you died. the day before you left you loved and adored me, you then the next you took off in the night leaving me and separating our children and leaving us with no place to live. Please call me today and tell me you´ve made a terrible mistake. I feel so alone, like my other half is gone and I am just blowing in the breeze. What did I do? I am so confused my darling.