ellie00

I really need you right now as my life falls apart. I need my best friend to give me the support and advice through all this. I miss you so much. My life really crumbled when you decided we were done. I wish things were different...i still love you with all my heart.

I can't sleep tonight. My mind is racing with thoughts that haven't bothered me in a while. This is not getting any easier. I miss you more today than I did back in June. I don't think I will ever move on. I just want you and our life back to normal. I love you forever and always.

It's been almost 2 months since I moved out. I wonder if you miss me at all. I still hope that you come to realize this separation was a mistake. I just want to come home and be with you. My love for you has not changed one bit and it never will. I'll always be here for you no matter what. ❤

I broke no contact today to tell you I was done trying to be part of your life. I laid my heart on the line and said everything I needed to. Your response was what I expected but I hoped you would give me a hint that I actually meant something to you for the last 16 years. Nope, you act like we dated for a few weeks. I should have known all along that it would end this way. I was used for so long. I hope you enjoy the house that was picked out by me. I forced you just to go look at it. Now it's all yours. My heart is broken but I will move on. Hopefully I can start to forget about you even if I think your my soul mate.

The pain tonight sucks! I've felt pretty good for the last week but tonight it has hit me like a ton of bricks. The sadness and pain has come back. I wonder why... What made you stop loving me after all these years and everything that we had been through. It's just a bad night and I know I'll be ok tomorrow or the next day. The waves of sadness and pain are the worst. It comes and goes at the worst times. Maybe it will be a little longer before it comes back. Until eventually it just doesn't anymore.

I miss you so much. All the things I used to find annoying, I miss. While I'm here miserable your enjoying life. You have easily moved on from everything we shared for all those years. Even have a new friend as you call it to occupy your time. I wish I was like you. Able to just forget and move on. But no, I'm stuck here wondering about everything. Wishing this was all a horrible dream. I still love you and always will!

I am missing you tonight. I just wish we could turn back time and fix whatever it was that caused you to end us. We talked the other day for a long time and I got to say what I needed to. I thought it would help me feel better but it didn't. I wonder how if it has made you think about things differently. I just want my life back. I didn't just lose you, I lost almost everything I have ever known. I hope that you will find your way back to me before it's to late. I still love you!

It's sad that the only one that can make me feel better is the same person that broke me.

I wonder what your doing right now. I wonder if you are thinking about me at all. I still love you more than anything. I just want to come home.

Awake at 3am and all I want to do is text you. I miss you so much. I wonder if you are missing me and if you ever thib k about me at all. Thoughts of you consume my brain and it's making me crazy. I know I need to move on but how...

Bored at work tonight so my thoughts drift to you and the life we used to share. I wish everyday that things could go back to normal. Your moving on so fast. It's like the last 16 years were nothing to you. I'm still broken into a million pieces with no idea how long I will be this way. Maybe forever, I still love everything about you.

It's only been one day of NC and I want to text you so bad. How am I ever going to survive this. I miss you! I don't understand how you are able to carry on like you are. Didn't these last 16 years mean anything to you?

I wish I could talk to you tonight. With everything going on in my life right now, I really need my best friend back. For 16 years you were my rock, now I have no one. I'm falling apart more every day. I miss you so much.

I hope you are having a good trip. One of the songs you used to sing to me came on the radio earlier. Now I can't get you off my mind. That's the worst. There are so many things that remind me of you or us. Everyday I get reminders. I don't understand how you can just be fine.

I'm all moved out now. I hope that you now find the happiness that you seek. Maybe you will realize that you had it all along, you just didn't see me for what I truly am. I will always love you no amount of distance or time will change that.