ChilliRed2013

I really want to send you a "hello". But I wont. I CANNOT. Because I am hurting today. And i do not want to pass on that hurt to you. I want you to know that I truly truly hope that you never EVER experience the emotional trauma of losing a child. It is unimaginable. I hope you can never fully empathise with me on this subject. Three wonderful children. Last I heard, They are alive and healthy and enjoying life. But I have to treat them like they have died... and I will never see them again. Your choices in life affect those around you. Those closest to you. You will never know the full extent of that effect unless you become aware.. become a better person. You were giving.. but in a very self centred manner. This is why I cannot say "hello". You haven't changed yourself to become a better person like you told me you wanted to. Just words you probably read somewhere that you employed to validate what you were doing. You are still focused on pursueing,satisfying immediate wants and desires. Acting without thinking. Please GROW as a person. Please do not hurt another person via selfishness and sneakiness. Happy 31st birthday.

I just do not understand why you did what you did. Really hope it benefits the kids needs, and not just your own wants at the time.