AAHAHAJHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE YOU1@!!!!!!!!! I'M WAS A MAN OF COMPASSION, NOW I HATE EVERYTHING IN THIS FRICKIN' WORLD!!@
5yrs relationship over just a lil under 2 weeks ago. she's already talking about wanting to date other guys. i told her that i think it's too soon and kinda disrepectful to me. she told me she's fine if i was dating other people too. the problem is i don't want to start dating, but i told her it's ok if she does (it kills me to say it). i'm a real jealous freak and just learned not to be.
my problem is i'm afraid to fall in love again. i don't get how she can forget everything we've had so quickly. are all girls like this? cuz if they are, i can't see myself ever liking another girl in my lifetime. i can't stand the crying and the heartaches any longer. i hate love. love sucks a big one. i hate girls. they all just want the easy way out and end things like it was just a game for them.
there are so many things going through my mind right now. i do not want to share them with you, because you'll all tell me to seek help. i've been betrayed, and i'll never search for love again.
she gave me some old cliche saying if we're meant to be blah blah blah..
i told her i can respect her decision, and i'll wait for her to come back.
but deep down i know she ain't coming back. she wants to leave me so she can go clubbing with her friends while i'm at home worrying about my business. business isn't doing so well so i'm constantly worrying. still doesn't give her any right to go freaking some guy at a club. i don't mind her dancing with guys, but freaking them isn't right. i mean, what guy would like to have their girlfriend getting grinded by some other guy??
also, i have a quick question for all the girls. do you girls feel all tingly with your man all the time? my gf said she doesn't feel that anymore. i know 5 yrs can do that to a relationship. i told her i didn't feel it anymore too, because she doesn't care about me enough for me to feel it. but i do love her like crazy.
i think about suicide all the time. :2gunfire: please don't tell me i need help. i want the hurt to stop so bad. i just want everything to be ok again. 5 yrs wasted and i ain't about to waste another 5 yrs.