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Thread: Feel Very, Very Low

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    Feel Very, Very Low

    I've been having suicidal thoughts. I have taken an overdose in the past - about 5 years ago but have recently felt bad again. Everything is getting on top of me.

    I'm a 30 year old gay man and I live at home with my parents due to financial constraints.

    I'm finally leaving home this Friday. I'm going to rent a place with my cousin and a friend. My cousin is straight and my friend identifies as being straight - I'm not sure if he is.

    I got drunk on Saturday night and told my friend that I'm in love with him. He walked out of the bar that we were in. He was fine with me this morning but sent me a text-message to my mobile phone this afternoon which was along the lines of: "We need to sort this out". He said he isn't mad at me but I'm not so sure. I feel awful because I've upset him and I don't want him to feel awkward around me.

    In the past, he had told me that he's bisexual (he told me whilst drunk) but he seems to have no recollection of this. I thought he had feelings for me. One night last year, he was dancing around his living room whilst I sat on the couch laughing at him. He tripped, fell on his knees and put his head on my lap. He said: "Me and you are going to have sex tonight", I replied: "No we are not!". He was dating a (female) friend of mine at the time - a relationship was not an option. They have since split up.

    I need to leave home and this is the first real opportunity I've ever had. I feel sick all the time, thinking about it. I had an argument with my mother the other week and she told me that she wanted me out. I need to leave. I just don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I feel very very low at the moment.

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    NOT SOMEONE ELSE/BEING U

    HEY HONEY,
    READING YOUR POST REALLY STUCK 2 ME BECAUSE THE 1st THING U NEED 2 KNOW IS THAT YOUR IN CONTROL OF YOUR FRIENDSHIP, (meaning) AS LONG AS YOUR IN CONTROL OF NOT ONLY YOUR FEELINGS , BUT YOUR ACTIONS AS WELL, TRUST ME U WILL NOT BE IN JEAPORDY OF LOOSING YOUR FRIENDSHIP, EVEN THOUGH U FEEL LIKE U LUV THIS GUY, IF HE'S REALLY YOUR FRIEND THAN THATS JUST THE BOTTOM LINE, U NEED 2 GAIN CONTROL OF THE FACT THAT, U DONT NEED 2 BE W/HIM, U JUST WANT 2, AND WANTING AND NEEDING ARE 2 DIFFERENT THINGS, BUT WHAT U DO NEED IS YOUR FRIEND, DONT LOOSE THAT 4 ANYTHING CAUSE GOOD FRIENDS R HARD 2 FIND.............

    AS FAR HAS HIM HAVING A SELECTIVE MEMORY (HA ) ITS OK, LOOK AT IT LIKE THIS MAYBE THE TIMING ISN'T RIGHT, LIKE U SAID HE WAS UNDER THE INFLUENCE, SO MAYBE HES JUST NOT READY 2 ASSUME HIS TRUE IDENITY JUST YET

    AS FAR AS SUICIDE...PLS. I KNOW EXACTLY HOW U FEEL, CAUSE IVE BEEN THERE, BUT LET ME TELL U LIFE IS SO MUCH BIGGER THAN THAT...SO BE EASY THINK POSITIVE....TRY AT LEAST

    GO AHEAD, MOVE OUT TAKE A CHANCE, GET OUT OF MOMS HAIR AND TRY 2 BUILD A BETTER RELATIONSHIP W/HER FROM YOUR NEW HOME....

    WELL GOOD-LUCK ANYWAY,
    REPLY 2 MY MESG, LET ME KNOW HOW THINGS TURN OUT


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