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Thread: Intense jealousy/distrust is KILLING my relationship – need help, what can I do?

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    Intense jealousy/distrust is KILLING my relationship – need help, what can I do?

    Today I (m30) come home and notice my laptop was used while I was out. I ask my partner (f25) about it, and she claims she didn’t touch it. I tell her, that I know she was on it. She changes the story, she just had to quickly look something up on google while cooking. Okay, now I know for sure this is definitely happening… again. I quickly check the browsing history, no google searches while I was away, just Facebook and Gmail. Viber is also open for some reason, but minimized (which I never do).

    I confront her about this. At first she denies it… but eventually admits it, she was searching for conversations with other girls. I go on long walks around the evening. Somehow, she got this idea that I’m secretly meeting with other girl(s) when I'm out. Her primary suspect was a female friend I have not seen since 2018. I wish I could say this was the first time something like this occurred, but it’s not (see my comment, for two more examples).

    I have been with my partner for nearly 5 years. Jealousy issues started within the first six months. She became verbally hostile, borderline obsessive at times, when she talked about my exes, female friends, and even some random female acquaintances I crossed paths with.

    I really need help and advice. I just don’t know what to do. Talking gets us nowhere. We’ve been through all of this hundreds of times. She is also anti therapy of any kind, so there's no way to bring a professional into this. I love her, and she brings so much joy into my life. But at the same time these intense jealousy issues, when they do pop up, are really unbearable. Every time it happens, I’m so close to calling it quits and basically destroying my otherwise great life – then I stay, and things get back to being good quickly. But at the same time I'm not proud of accepting behavior which I know is deeply wrong. In fact, I'm so ashamed that none of my close friends/family know how jealous she gets.

    (more info in comment below, for anyone who has time to read more details)

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    To make things very clear, I have never cheated on my partner – nothing, big or small. I do have some close female friends, entirely platonic. No unrequited love or flirting on either side.

    My fault in all of this, which I readily acknowledge, is that early on I shared too much with her about my past relationships. At that point in time I was used to far more ‘tolerant’ partners – mentioning or even discussing exes was far from taboo, it was a normal thing to do. I carried that approach into my current relationship, which obviously turned out to be a huge mistake. By the time I realized what a problem it's creating, it was too late.

    As things stand today, I do my very best to NEVER mention my previous relationships, not even in passing (or while talking to someone else if she’s around). Since early on, we also have an agreement that I am not to communicate with any of my exes or any other women I slept with.

    In principle, I do not like these ground rules. Not because I was dying to speak to my exes (in fact, I wasn’t even in touch with any of them by 2015). I simply don’t believe anyone should dictate who we can talk to, see, or otherwise interact with.

    With that said, I gave in for the sake of staying together. I’m not proud of what I did, but I saw no other way. No amount of talking (and fighting) about it was getting us anywhere.

    I also had hopes, back in 2015/16 that (A) as time passed my exes would become ancient history, and consequently stop to bother her so much, (B) she would become more secure in our relationship the longer we stayed together and (C) she would mature and become less jealous with age – she was only 20 when we first started dating (and I was/am her first boyfriend and sexual partner).

    As you have probably guessed by now, my hopes didn’t pan out. Jealousy issues continue to plague us – and often ruin an otherwise good day. More than that. They ruin an otherwise good relationship (and a good, fulfilling life). Intense jealousy issues aside, I want to emphasize that she is a great partner – devoted, loving, caring, funny and otherwise well matched (worldview, priorities, plans, etc). If you’re wondering why I stuck around for so long, that’s the reason.

    Two additional examples to demonstrate what I mean by "intense jealousy" issues:

    1.) Two years ago my partner went on my computer, and snooped on my FB. This was the first time she did something like this, today was the second (that I know of). She read my conversations with some girls going all the way back to early 2010s. She was outraged about some flirty messages I exchanged with another girl (these conversations took place years before I even met my partner). She demanded I delete this girl from my FB right away, and was outraged I was “hiding her”. I never dated, became intimate, or even kissed the girl in question...but for my gf the fact that at some point in time “I tried” was already too much to accept. This was a big deal and I was very close to breaking up then.

    2.) I had an opportunity to briefly travel with a female childhood friend who was visiting my part of the world with her husband. My partner, who was not able to come along, was convinced the childhood friend “wanted me” and expected me not to go at all, threatening she would break up if I did. We fought for many days, she eventually budged, I went. But she hated it, and continues to say really hostile and harsh things about my friend to me (a person she never met who just got married).

    These are not the only examples. Far from it. But I feel like I already took way too much space. If you read it all, sincerely, thank you for taking the time.

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    I would sit her down and tell her you are very close to ending your relationship and you will if she doesn’t stop. Period. Then password out your pc.

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    What can you do? Looks like you've done and said everything.
    The change needs to come from her. But she has to acknowledge she has problem and needs to motivated to change it.
    What do you think would motivate her? Maybe the notion of losing a relationship that's very important to her?

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    Sorry about all this.

    I realize it's easier for me to see all this standing on the outside, but from what you've written it sounds like you've spent the majority of this relationship validating the very behavior you find so corrosive. What you saw within 6 months, after all, is what you continue to see 5 years later. Why you opted to keep investing—well, that's something to explore, I think. Perhaps you liked the idea that you could help shepherd her into adulthood, seeing these tensions as dregs of adolescence that would evaporate with some patience and guidance?

    She was, as you said, quite young when you met, so I can understand telling yourself the story that this was something she'd grow out of, with time. Sadly, as I think you've learned, I don't think it really works that way in relationships. Ever hear the thing about famous people, how they stay somewhat "frozen" in whatever age they first became famous, thanks to the power of outside validation? Well, I think it's similar in relationships: we validate someone for who they are, not who they might become. The person you thought she'd grow out of? She's just grown further into, as your relationship has grown further into the shape you hoped it would evolve out of.

    What to do?

    You have five years—a substantial amount of time—to know how you two operate. That, more than anything, gives you clear sense of how things will be for the next five. Expecting something completely different? I get the comfort in that, but I think it's false comfort. At the end of the day she understands, on a cellular level, that her jealousy is rewarded by you. You take it very seriously, and have twisted yourself into all sorts of shapes to (a) accommodate it and (b) accommodate a story in your mind that, in all that bending, things will somehow go from light to dark.

    So while I could sit here and offer some step by step advice—serious talk, firm boundaries, new passwords, no more leeway should this come up again—I think that would really be a way of avoiding exploring what you've been getting from this dynamic and whether that's something you've grown out of, whatever it is. You're not 25 anymore, and perhaps now that you're 30 you're really seeing the limitations in building a connection with these sorts of threads.

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    Thanks for the responses – we were on the verge of breaking up a few times already. During her jealousy phases, she's quite angry and emotional. It's hard to reason or use logical arguments when this happens. To her she's the victim in all of this.

    When I say I will break up, her response is usually "fine, leave, go and f*** "Annie" if that's what you want so badly" – she connects my threat to leave with a desire for some other woman. Even when "Annie" is a mere work acquaintance or an ex I haven't interacted with in nearly a decade. Basically it doesn't make any sense. I wouldn't "go" to these women even if I was moving out.

    In general she says a lot of things she doesn't mean, which is something I really dislike. It's very easy for her to say "never come back," etc. I'm the opposite, words hold a lot of meaning for me, and I still can't get used to this "I just said it cuz I was angry" style of arguing, even after 5 years.

    As for locking out my computer/phone. I can... I guess I should, but this makes me sad. I would hope she would change and not feel the need to invade my privacy anymore.

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    Her mode of attack;character assassination proves she doesn’t know how to communicate and has an issue that SHE needs to solve not you.

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    I think she's acting jealous because she's afraid of losing you or feels insecure in this relationship. Something about power imbalance. So essentially, it's not about you actually cheating. Rather, her not believing that she's good enough for you (or something along those lines) and therefore she's fearful that you might find someone better one day.

    Females who feel secure in a relationship don't act that way. That's been my experience.

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    Why aren't your devices password protected? You make this seem like you are a victim and she is the root of all evil destroying your "otherwise great life".. If things were all that great you would not insist she get therapy and she would not be going through your devices. However if that were the case you would not have continued no less moved in together.

    Additionally you tell her she needs therapy and you want her to change and to get fixed. Yet not only did you stay (and blame her for not changing or fixing herself in therapy) you moved in together. You seem to realize that you have made this as much of an issue as she has. If you passcode protected your devices she wouldn't get insanely jealous and then what? You would just be an average guy and she would not be a psycho?
    Originally Posted by awkpanda
    I have been with my partner for nearly 5 years. destroying my otherwise great life – then I stay, and things get back to being good quickly.

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    This is who she is. Does this work for you?

    It's really that simple at its core. Does this work for you?

    Unfortunately, people who are this jealous are often projecting. Cheaters live in constant fear of being cheated on. Maybe it's time for you to take a closer look at what it is she is doing behind your back.

    Then again, maybe it's time for you to ask yourself if this toxic dynamic is how you want to live your life regardless of what she may or may not be doing. Does this work for you?

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