People that are truly in love with someone and love them as you state you do don't contact other men for attention, drunk or not. The drinking is an excuse, not a reason.

A house cannot cure what ails you, it will only distract you for a time.

If you asked your bf what is the most import thing to him, a house or your emotional well being what do think he would say?

I think you believe you love him and that may very well be true but your actions do not show love, it shows insecurities, lies and selfishness. Do you seriously want to continue down this path?

First things first and that is getting your emotional health straightened out. A house can wait.

Be honest with yourself

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