Please read your post.

I’m being serious, read it. Pretend it’s not your story. What would you advise yourself, again being serious.

I think it’s quite obvious you have been forcing things with yourself for a while, you ‘both’ have not been through a lot, he has endured a lot.

No judgement at all, I think you see him as a safety net and maybe thought you would always have the power and now that he’s left you, you’re kinda in a tizzy.

But seriously read what you wrote, this wasn’t working for either of you anymore.