The thing about this lady was that she was one of three people who came into my life that summer. All three would talk to me in insensitive ways and I just second guessed things. Sorry it's hard to explain.

I don't know exactly why I apologise often. I think there have been times when I said something and it was wrong or rather it was taken the wrong way. I'm just not comfortable speaking my mind.

I'm not feeling all that okay right now. Work has been difficult. Not the work itself but I found myself in some very uneasy social situations that really make me feel even more worthless than usual. I wish I didn't always feel this way.