Have you followed up with a medical doctor and psychiatrist? When was your last complete check up from a physician? It sounds like you're not out of the woods yet with the severity of your mental health. Give yourself a break and be easier on yourself.

If talk therapy is not working and giving you conflicting messages it's time to take care of your health and go to a physician. If you feel or your parents feel you are too fragile right now to not only take a new job but move out on your own as well as 9 hours from any family, friends support systems etc, then a move would be disastrous. Get on LinkedIn, update your profile, start looking for local jobs.
Originally Posted by summablairr
I had to be hospitalized last year after a suicide attempt. I've been doing better, but I'm worried a new place could trigger me back to a dark place.