I only read the first page of posts. So, IMO this guy is married or has a steady gf. He's using you to get his rocks off. What on earth are you getting out of this? Surely you know you are wasting your time with this guy. You are a sexy fantasy bit of fun to him, nothing else. Time to stop this, you are clearly wasting your time and your life on him and it's going nowhere and it never will.