(THIS IS REALLY LONG IM SORRY, IF YOU READ IT ALL ILY OKAY, I REALLY NEED ADVICE, SCROLL TO THE BOTTOM FOR THE QUESTION/SUMMARY)
Okay, so about 6 or 7 years ago while I was still in high school I met a guy who I really liked. The thing is I met this guy right before my family moved me 1000 miles away literally. So I totally fell for him and we became fast friends and for a while he had friend zoned me but then he eventually started to reciprocate his feelings towards me back. It was really bad timing to be honest.
Eventually I had a going away/birthday party and I invited him, and my friend pulled him aside at the end of the party to convince him to give me a goodbye kiss since I was leaving. So I pretty much got my first kiss that night. So basically after, we hung out everyday that week up until moving day. He even told me a family member of his was living down where I was moving and that he would be visiting me when he went down there the next two weeks. Which he did, and he even spent the night with my family and I at my house and it was great. He really seemed to like me and all our fiends and family knew of us and they thought he cared for me. He even said at some point he wanted to do long distance but it didn’t work out that way since we were so young and in our teens still.
Okay, so fast forward a little and eventually he started becoming cold and distant and we started arguing and most of the time in text or Skype, and it would end with me subbing him in an angry FB post he would later see. Eventually he stopped talking to me and blocked me on social media and a few months later was talking to someone new and dating them. It didn’t take long for it to become a cycle where, when he broke up with someone he was dating her quickly unblocked me and would try to talk to me again, get bored, and start talking to someone new, then blocking me once more. Everytime we started talking again I would pretend like nothing happened and it wasn’t a dumb rebound cycle.
So to make this short, this cycle pretty much kept up on and off for the last few years since we’ve known each other, and the actual last time I had seen him in person was the few months after I had moved where I visited back home, and he honestly kind of played me then too. I heard through the grapevine and from seeing the pages of the people he’d date that he was in some pretty serious relationships but they never seemed to end well, and well then he was eventually trying to find me and put me back in his radar again even though I live far.
Okay so fast forward even more to very recently, a month or two ago, we reconnected through social media after nearly 2 years of not speaking to each other bc he was in a pretty serious relationship this time and they broke up a half a year ago, and I was really missing him so I spoke with him a little. I was due for a visit home actually and I told him so, and he said that we would maybe see each other. Sooo, we made plans to see each other when I went up there. Eventually our talking got us on the topic of us both being single and reminiscing about what we had as kids and then we started talking randomly about sex. I had realized then that I had been a virgin so long and seeing how comfortable I was around him in the past, I knew he’d be a great candidate for my first time. So we discussed it, I told him the truth, and bam, I officially had my plans when I went up there.
So I visited back home and he was actually the person I first saw. All these years later and he still looked the same but more handsome, and he said the same of me. It felt great seeing him again since I thought I never was going to see him again tbh. We kissed again and it was the same as all the years before... I really felt a connection again, and he said my lips felt the same. We hung out and caught up and eventually we went back to his house which brought back memories. We eventually had sex in his room while his family was home (asleep) and he really made the effort to make the first experience for me comfortable and feel good. He really took his time with foreplay and he pleased me before himself. He kissed me all over and kissed me tenderly as we had intercourse, and he asked if I was okay, and told me I was okay when I would moan. If it hurt he would stop and try to help me loosen up before going again. Afterwards, we cuddled a very short amount of time, he kissed me on my lips, neck, chest, and lastly my forehead which really made it feel special for me.
What made this feel even better was how he made the effort to come get me when where I was visiting and staying at was almost an hour away from him. He picked me up and dropped me off even though it was sort of an inconvenience for him, I guess he really wanted to see me. He even bought me food after, and before we left his house he kissed and hugged me some more also. When he dropped me off we made out tenderly before I got it of the car and cuddled a little, and he didn’t leave until I got inside the house, which I thought was super sweet and gentlemanly of him. This whole time we spent together, it seemed like he really cared, especially for my first time and for it being us seeing each other after so long. I had no idea where we would stand after I went back home though, but I already figured we may never talk again after this, so I just tried to enjoy it. This whole situation happened twice in my whole trip.
So I saw him again about three days ago, the day before I was due to go back home, and we had sex again. It was the same tender loving cycle but it seemed a bit more rushed I guess. Both times we’d spent together he displayed both signs that he was being sort of distant but also like he really cared for me so I’m confused. For instance, this time after the sex, he got up quickly and began dressing and looking at me to get dressed and went upstairs quickly to prepare to take me back, but afterwards in the car he let me hug and kiss him and tel him I had a great time, and that didn’t know when I would see him again, to which he replied that I would see him and he wanted to visit me.
He also mentioned how we could hang out a little longer if I wanted but that he had to work early in the morning, but it wasn’t as late as it was the first time we hung out and he had to work that morning too. Anyways during this recent drive back I stayed particularly quiet and he kept putting his hand on my leg and asking me what I was thinking about, turning the music down to listen to me, and letting me hold and kiss his hand and kissing me at the lights. So I guess I’m just confused on why he wanted to get up from bed to drop me off so quickly and then he was tender and sweet afterwards, even kissing me goodbye while holding me and waiting for me to get inside again.
Both times he texted me to either see how I was doing or tell me he had a great time and to have a safe flight. Now the last time I spoke to him was 2 days ago, through social media, where we said we missed each other. I have not tried initiating anything and neither has he.
Do you think he will ghost me after all this effort to see each other and have sex twice, and was it possibly just meaningless to him so that he could get some? I’m not sure if he may ghost me because I live far and there’s nothing that can be done about it or if he really will continue to talk to me, and potentially visit in the future.
Any advice on this is greatly appreciated! I would love to hear some similar stories and situations to go about this and see if maybe I should just cut him off before he does me, or continue staying connected with him after all that’s happened....
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