Originally Posted by Wiseman2
Sorry this is happening. On/off relationships and moving in/out is sheer chaos. Give yourself more credit and less labels. Instead be glad you are financially free of this indecisiveness and roller coaster. Now that he is gone and you are free, after a while you can start meeting and dating decent men who aren't this indifferent, superficial and generate this much instability, drama and pain in your life. Continue therapy. Stay no contact and delete and block him and all his people from all your social media and messaging apps.
Yes, it is sheer chaos and I am so very exhausted. I'm just so upset because I just turned 38 and now probably won't have kids, but I need to chill out and heal. I stopped communicating with him as much (it's down to a minimum) and am working on getting there with the no contact. Still seeing my therapist.