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Long story short-

 

My ex and I been together for 5 years and last Saturday we got in a fight about something so stupid. After talking she said she's done. She doesn't see herself marrying me and she needed to be single to find and love herself. This is such a big shocker for me.

 

Today after work, she will be packing her stuff and leaving out apt that we have a lease together. I accepted and didn't begged her or ask her to stay. I love her to death and hoping we can reconcile down the road if we cross path again.

 

It'll be hard coming to an apt we shared for 3 years and her not being there. Time to go NC and better myself. I hope she can do the same and if we do end up together. It'll be much better.

 

It's just funny that she wanted this break up yet she still want a relationship and not leaving/losing me for good. Reality is slowly kicking in :(

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No you are right, its something much deeper than the stupid fight. We passed the honeymon phase. We never talked or worked out the red flags until it's too late. We got so caught with work- I'm at amazon and she's Microsoft. We got too comfortable and stopped doing things we wanted to and loved to do together.

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For sure, I was happy that we see eyes to eyes regarding these issues and not be in denial. I know actions speak louder than words. I can wait to be better for the future whether its with her or someone else. It's just so hard because its so fresh and about to see her pack up her stuff and leave our apt.

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No you are right, its something much deeper than the stupid fight. We passed the honeymon phase. We never talked or worked out the red flags until it's too late. We got so caught with work- I'm at amazon and she's Microsoft. We got too comfortable and stopped doing things we wanted to and loved to do together.

 

There is a valuable lesson to be learned from this. In the future, don't allow yourself to fall into this state. The honeymoon can't last forever but afterwards if you truly love and enjoy the company of your partner, cherish that. Prioritize it. Don't become a mindless drone.

 

I'm sorry you're hurting, but you seem to have a good head on your shoulders and you know how to tackle this. Stay distracted and learn something that will benefit your future relationships, whether that's a second chance or someone new.

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There is a valuable lesson to be learned from this. In the future, don't allow yourself to fall into this state. The honeymoon can't last forever but afterwards if you truly love and enjoy the company of your partner, cherish that. Prioritize it. Don't become a mindless drone.

 

I'm sorry you're hurting, but you seem to have a good head on your shoulders and you know how to tackle this. Stay distracted and learn something that will benefit your future relationships, whether that's a second chance or someone new.

 

Thank you so much for your support. You guys are truly amazing and without you guys, this site wouldn't be what it is.

 

When we talked about the red flags and issues, it was such a relieved and I felt like i was revived to that awesome guy i was instead of a mindless drone. Sad to say, it's a little too late.

 

Just a little scare that I might lose her for good. :/

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Just remember, NC is for moving on and not for reconciling. All of this talk of wanting to better yourself sounds a bit too much like the online gurus who sell "guaranteed" strategies to get your ex back. I agree with the poster who mentioned that she likely has been considering breaking up for some time. People don't end 5 year relationships over one argument. I'm not suggesting that you contact her to try to win her over, but don't get stuck and obsessed about using NC to make her miss you if you can help it. I'm sorry for your loss.

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Just remember, NC is for moving on and not for reconciling. All of this talk of wanting to better yourself sounds a bit too much like the online gurus who sell "guaranteed" strategies to get your ex back. I agree with the poster who mentioned that she likely has been considering breaking up for some time. People don't end 5 year relationships over one argument. I'm not suggesting that you try to win her over, but don't get stuck and obsessed over reconciling if you can help it. I'm sorry for your loss.

 

I'm honestly not expecting anything after this breakup. What I mean by being better is not to make the same mistakes that I did whether if we get back together or for the next relationship. once I go NC is just to better myself to move on and not to reconcile.

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Who wants to get married? Her or you? Hasn't she broken up and moved out back home to her parents a few times before? Have you ever gotten to the bottom of the real issues?

 

We talked about getting married down the road but not anytime soon. It's crazy that we both are still in love with each other, physically and sexually attracted to one and another. But the past six months, we were not able to communicate our issues and the state that we was in. She stated that sometimes she felt like she was just my roommate.

 

She packed her stuff last night and will be moving out today. She said that she just want to be single without interference from guys in general so she can find herself, love herself, better herself and know how to deal with things. She said that when she's ready, she will be reaching back out for a casual date and see how the both of us had grown over the time and space. If it's meant to be, we will have a discussion of getting back together with a refresh start.

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Admittedly, I had no idea what you were talking about on the first page and therefore had nothing to comment on. There was no basis for the fight that we know of and her quick reaction to you seemed inappropriate and untimely. I also didn't feel like the recounting of the facts was reliable enough to comment on because you're still in shock and are leaving some details out. I'm very sorry you're going through this. You sound like you're taking it well but I think you're in a lot of pain. It's fine not to always be strong. Comments hearing that you feel like a roommate to her are not easy to hear.

 

The only thing I can tell you from what you've written (post #11) is that when a person tells you they're not feeling well, it's best to believe them and trust that there is work to be done on their end. Don't take on that guilt on yourself if you are. She isn't feeling well and may have lost touch with herself. The regrettable thing is that I think she's making a mistake and she's taking it out on the relationship. A person is allowed not to feel good all the time but it doesn't mean walking out on commitments or leaving loved ones behind. If she does care about you and see a future with you or if she would even for a second entertain a fresh start at all she shouldn't have taken the gamble and forfeited the opportunity to challenge herself and become a better person within the relationship. It is possible to hone in and sharpen individual abilities and clarify individual emotions without forfeiting a committed relationship. That is my only feedback on her.

 

I'd be cautious going forward. My room for error is there but I'm no longer able to sustain large rooms for error in my life. An error in prematurely leaving or leaving a partner behind is very difficult for me to overlook. It's not because I don't forgive (I do) but I no longer am looking out for only myself anymore and I've discovered life is too short not to spend it happy most of the time. Anyone who takes away from that or is unable to support that similar belief doesn't have a place in my life. I hope you feel better soon.

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@rosemosse, Thank you so much for the thought out post. Everything you mentioned, I believe it and it's true.

 

I am 100% in pain, sadness, depression etc. I went through all the stages of the break up since last Saturday. Now, I'm just accepting that it's over and can only begin to heal and move forward.

 

I wish we were able to stay together, work it out, and grow together. But I think this is something she need to do on her own. She never been single for more than a month. She just need to work on herself honestly. I hope that she does and using all the time and space. She's afraid of commitment, afraid of communications, afraid of a healthy fight, insecure, scare etc.

 

And of course, I want us to be back together if we do end up that road in the future. But I'm for sure going to be cautious. I have hope but at the same time, don't want to throw all my eggs in one basket.

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I am very sorry. Hang in there. Those things you just mentioned (post #13) are not to be taken lightly. I would believe her too that she has a lot to work on. Keep on your healing path and don't lose hope or your confidence. Keep telling yourself that there is more to life than this and you will keep finding your own happiness. Repeat it like a mantra and go out there and live your life fully.

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It's really your decision and you have to know what's best for yourself (ask yourself what you need in order to stabilize yourself again). I would emphasize regaining stability. This means peace with the world around you, peace with yourself, peace with where you are headed and knowing what your purpose is in life(reacquainting yourself with your other commitments and future goals). You should emphasize on peace and the cultivation/rebuilding of your identity and inner strength. The path that leads that way is the path I'd suggest. You should choose how you would like to get there, the tools you need to use. Go from there.

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Unfortunately it will hurt but perhaps her departure is best. It sounds like too much arguing and incompatibility. When someone 'feels like roommates' and 'needs space', it could mean she's exploring other options. Keep in mind she is not staying to work on anything. Moving out is a very definitive end. Stay no contact and consider this the end not a "growth period".

afraid of a healthy fight.
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  • 4 weeks later...

a little update:

 

Its been exactly 4 weeks since she moved out. The first two weeks was extremely difficult for me and to live in our apt. by myself, Since there, I had learned so much about our relationships and why things happened. Instead of going out with friends, drinking etc. I find peace within myself and the world on my own and being alone.

 

Yes, though I did all of this, in week 3 her and I met up twice to hangout. We still talked everyday etc but at the same time, I was processing the breakup, accept it and move forward. It was extremely difficult but I was able to do it while seeing her and talking to her.

 

As for her, since the breakup... she been keeping herself busy with friends and family. She told me today that when we hangout, we don't really have a spark. That's very true because my defense is up and I'm just being casual while she still haven't process the break up and move forward.

 

She asked for us to go no contact so she can be alone, to process the breakup, and to be able to move forward from it. When she's ready, she will reach back out. It sucks but I'm okay with that. I know I'll be sad and depressed here and there. it's normal to have those feelings.

 

I hope everyone that are in my shoes are doing well. One day at a time, its really hard!

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Yes sounds like you are doing really well, keep it up. Remember NC will be good for both of you. Just because she may offer you fake friendship 3 months down the line doesn't mean you should accept it. You will probably discover you feel happier without her in your life at all and that is fine for you to stand by that decision but if you believe you can be friends then feel free to break NC.

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I don't think we can ever be friends. I also told her this and she understand. She even admit that we cant be friends because we have so much history together and that we are physically and sexually attractive to each other.

 

When she asked for us to hangout, I was shocked but I accepted it. I asked her whats the reason behind it and she said I just want to hangout. But in reality, she wanted to see if the spark was still there. Of course it's not, we are just broken up and still processing, grieving it all.

 

So not sure if I should be hopeful or not and just completely let her go and move on.

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I'm pretty strong where I don't text her or check on her social media accounts. It hurts when I got back to the home that we once shared.

 

Her and I was talking about reconciling when the time is right and when both are better from this breakup. I'm not trying to look much into it as you'll never know what's going to happen in the future.

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So it’s been 3 days of NC. Her and I have a a lot mutual friends. About 50 that she met through me. Today after work, I went with about 6 of them for a birthday party and we were throwing axe. A few of them recorded and have me on their Instagram stories. Instantly, she literally purged and blocked everyone and including myself from her Facebook and Instagram.

 

I’m so baffled and confused why she did this or she’s just plain crazy. In a way it’s embarrassing because they are her friends too and they treat her so well. I feel bad because I’m thinking to myself that Iran my fault and I got them caught in the middle of something that they didn’t do.

 

What is her problem?

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