Get to a doctor for a check up. Rule out issues that require a medical workup and treatment if talk therapy is going nowhere. However continue therapy for follow up. Keep in mind nothing is a magic bullet to redirect self defeating thoughts and behaviors like this.

It's "normal" to feel upset after a breakup but it's not in your best interest to globalize negativity and indulge in helplessness, hopelessness, ruminating and this degree of pessimism. Keep in mind also that your negative depressing attitude is causing relationship issues, not the other way around. Only you can change that.
Originally Posted by Madamlost
I feel like im cursed, like I'm not suppose to be happy.
Im having counselling, trying to understand me, and why Im so broken.
It doesn't help..