Long story & please don't judge! I'm married & 6 years ago became friendly with a friend of a friend online. She lived locally & we chatted a lot online and then one day met, this was 6 years ago. She was also married at the time but split from her husband 3 years ago. Nothing sexual had happened between us but the physical attraction was there in abundance.
We did obviously end up sleeping together. I hated myself for it & knew I had to think about my wife and make a decision. At the end of 2017 I made that decision but we ended up arguing & walked away from each other but was only temporarily.
We started to think about it again when I landed in trouble at work & was in danger of losing my job. This dragged on for 7 months, in this time my mental health suffered. We argued, I became jealous & made ridiculous accusations, I really wasn't myself. I kept my job but didn't get better immediately, there were signs before Christmas though and we had some lovely days together but were clouded by more arguments.
2 weeks ago we again argued & we said goodbye last Sunday, her decision. Since then I bombarded her with messages begging for us to be together properly but she's refused.
I know I need to do the right thing regarding my wife. My marriage is dead, I love her but it's not enough.
So the one I want to be with says she loves me, she's hurting & we both know we'll never find love like this again but she says she's too emotionally scarred for us to be together now, I've hurt her too much & she can't let go of everything. I suggested time away but she refused & said we are over & I should sort my marriage out. My last message was Friday and I had no reply. I also told my wife I'm not happy anymore.
So what do I do? Sit & wait to see if she comes back? Give it a week? Or just walk away & let her find happiness elsewhere? I'm broken, I can't even eat or sleep.