I’m sorry

Honestly idk what going on with me. I’m sorry that I have not let go what my ex did to me. I have so many insecurities and trust issues. I don’t know how to forgive him and move on and is like killing me in the inside!

First, you need to forgive yourself, and understand why you tolerated that big mess- read your original thread.

See your doctor for a complete physical and to determine if something physical is going on and get a good referral to a therapist who can help you sort through this.

I have so many insecurities and trust issues.

Have you seen a therapist, yet?

you just DO. that's it. nobody is going to do it for you except for you - that's the truth. now is the time to work on those insecurities, face them head on. you have plenty of work to do so it should provide a great distraction from him and thinking about him for a while. you need to do this ... on your own... for yourself. period.

the only other thing that would help is to go see a professional counselor so they can give you some tools to work with to help you out.

Good luck.