MsBrightside Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 Just some back story...my husband and I have been together for 18 years and married for 15. We have one child. Before dating, we were good friend. About two years before he started dating me, he was in high school and dating a girl I will call Emily. About a year after, he was out of high school and he caught Emily with another guy and they broke up. He was really crazy about Emily. My husband's 20 year reunion is coming up this weekend. I am not going with him. This will be the first reunion he has attended. Emily will be there. She's married with several kids now. I'm worried about them reconnecting. They haven't seen each other since the day they split up. I feel paranoid and jealous about the situation and I hate feeling that way. Should I say something to my husband or just stay quiet and pretend like I'm fine with everything? Link to comment
Andrina Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 I'm assuming he's been faithful to you for 18 years, so why would you worry? It's insulting to question his integrity. Link to comment
Wiseman2 Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 Don't worry about this. He will be reminiscing with all his classmates. My husband's 20 year reunion is coming up this weekend. She's married with several kids now. Link to comment
Lilymc123 Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 I don't see why you would worry about them reconnecting. Surely he doesn't think very highly of her after she cheated on him. Does he still talk about her now? Even after 20 years? I'm sure the flame is long dead and extinguished Link to comment
MsBrightside Posted October 1, 2018 Author Share Posted October 1, 2018 No, he's never had an affair. He's a good husband and father and I don't want him to feel like I don't trust him. He doesn't talk about her. I need to move past my insecurities with this. Link to comment
yatsue Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 No, he's never had an affair. He's a good husband and father and I don't want him to feel like I don't trust him. He doesn't talk about her. I need to move past my insecurities with this. Yes, keep repeating this to yourself. Is everything okay in your marriage? Insecurities stem from somewhere, either within yourself, your past, or in your marriage. I wonder if you had come across anything in your life that would lead to such an insecurity (influence from a past ex, family/friends), or have not achieved/satisfied something in your marriage (kids, goals, emotions, stability, etc). Only you know where this stems from. Link to comment
SooSad33 Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 Nope. No worries. He's got a good life with you & she's got hers. They died many years ago. Trust him in this... continue to love. Link to comment
poorlittlefish Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 He is married to you and you have a child together. The ex is married to someone with whom she has children. Why would either party wish to spoil that? She cheated on him and you presumably haven't so again, why would he risk going back there? Plus everyone has aged and it's likely there'd be no mutual attraction anyway. I can understand why you are feeling insecure but I doubt you have reason to worry. Link to comment
HeartGoesOn Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 My husband's 20 year reunion is coming up this weekend. I am not going with him. This will be the first reunion he has attended. Emily will be there. She's married with several kids now. I understand this was not your question, but how do you know that "Emily will be there," and the fact that she's "married with several kids now?" Link to comment
MsBrightside Posted October 1, 2018 Author Share Posted October 1, 2018 I understand this was not your question, but how do you know that "Emily will be there," and the fact that she's "married with several kids now?" They arranged their reunion through Facebook and I could see that she was listed as saying she would be there. We're from a small town originally, so everyone knows everything about everyone. I've heard through the grapevine that she's married with kids. We all went to the same school but we graduated at different times. Link to comment
MsBrightside Posted October 1, 2018 Author Share Posted October 1, 2018 Yes, keep repeating this to yourself. Is everything okay in your marriage? Insecurities stem from somewhere, either within yourself, your past, or in your marriage. I wonder if you had come across anything in your life that would lead to such an insecurity (influence from a past ex, family/friends), or have not achieved/satisfied something in your marriage (kids, goals, emotions, stability, etc). Only you know where this stems from. Our marriage is good. We enjoy each other and have a lot of fun together. We both have good careers and are stable. Sadly I have always been an insecure person. I think some of it stems from my childhood. My mother definitely instilled the concept to not trust anyone and that even when you think someone is OK, they're probably not. Link to comment
j.man Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 If the network is as cozy as you're implying, I'm certain he wouldn't need a high school reunion to boink her if he and she really wanted to. It's not a good look, and I'd say it goes well beyond mild insecurity if you're leveraging his now married and mothering childhood sweetheart against your nearly 20 years of loyal partnership. Link to comment
MsBrightside Posted October 1, 2018 Author Share Posted October 1, 2018 If the network is as cozy as you're implying, I'm certain he wouldn't need a high school reunion to boink her if he and she really wanted to. It's not a good look, and I'd say it goes well beyond mild insecurity if you're leveraging his now married and mothering childhood sweetheart against your nearly 20 years of loyal partnership. I agree with you that it probably does go beyond mild insecurity. When something is on my mind I like to get it out into the open, but I know I sound crazy with this issue so I don't feel like I can talk about it with my husband. Link to comment
j.man Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 I mean, so long as you're absolutely positive these insecurities are 100% isolated and not spilling into any dynamic of your marriage, I suppose it's relatively harmless for you to post the concern for reassurance. Still, I don't know if you've pursued therapy in the past or are currently doing so, but it may be worth finding some professional help to reconcile such events as basic as this one. While I can't personally relate as I've yet to question my trust for my wife, I'd imagine it'd be miserable to not trust the person who's meant to be your life partner in this situation. Link to comment
yatsue Posted October 1, 2018 Share Posted October 1, 2018 Sadly I have always been an insecure person. I think some of it stems from my childhood. My mother definitely instilled the concept to not trust anyone and that even when you think someone is OK, they're probably not. There it is. There is nothing to worry about, concerning your partner. Know he is faithful for a couple decades now, and you can trust him for many more years to come. That is a lot of time together. Everyone has tinges of worry, it just becomes a problem when we can't keep them in check and let them fester. If you feel the need to unpack this from your childhood, please do so. Link to comment
MsBrightside Posted October 1, 2018 Author Share Posted October 1, 2018 I really appreciate all the thoughtful feedback. I am going to do my best to let this go and I'm not going to mention it to my husband. I am going to look into therapy though, which is something I think about from time to time. I tried it a few years ago and had some success. Jealously and insecurity are not good feelings to carry around. Link to comment
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