RIPDIME Posted August 16, 2018 Share Posted August 16, 2018 I'm not sure where to start, but I thought I'd try to get advice for where I am in life, and how to move forward. While this has been ongoing, in the last year, I became incredibly confused on where I wanted to live and who I was. I looked at my life and realized that I hadn't lived the life I wanted to live, and that there was a lot to change. This put me on a voyage of self discovery. I changed a whole lot of bad habits, addictions etc, especially in the last year. At first I moved out from a place of two years from my room-mates where I was stagnating. The new place was depressing, and life wasn't working, so I moved eight hours away to a small town during the winter for six months. Things didn't work as planned, so I decided to go travelling to Europe for a couple of months. While this was short-lived, and was only a 'taste', I had a really great time, and pushed myself past social anxiety, meeting the type of people I wanted to meet. At this point, I moved back to the city I was born in. However, there were a few problems now. I was confused more than ever where I wanted to live. I kept dreaming about emigrating to the UK, and accomplishing goals like getting a touring band together, getting good friends as opposed to the past etc. Because of the housing crisis in my home city, I found a place for a month. So there's the first part: I'm lost. I can't decide whether to go through a visa process and move, or stay here. I can weigh the pros and cons, and think hard on this, but both options seem huge. I only have two weeks to find a place in a city with a housing crisis in the busiest month, but time is running out to make this decision.. A lot of bizarre and inexplicable things have been happening to me (especially recently). In the past, I was very 'rational and skeptical, but the frequency of these events make me realize the universe is trying to tell me something. One, I keep having bizarre technological or life dysfunctions, where things like computers or other equipment all break down at once in weird ways that cost money. A couple other examples would be how I moved into my place a week early (was given the green light) and then the landlord said there's a 'technicality' and I can't stay at the place. Another is last night, I am parked in a parking lot, and a cop pulls up and says my insurance is out of date, fines and tows me, despite my insurance stickers being up to date (another technical glitch) (while a drunk driver backs into me randomly in front of the police officer). Very last of all.. I haven't had a relationship in over two years, have experienced lots of rejection, and haven't got laid. Yet, instantly when I move back to my home city, I'm walking on a beach, and meet a girl who has identical interests, who I eventually have sex with. While this may seem really good and all, the girl has some of my bad habits from the past (like smoking pot constantly) and I question my attraction to her, and her influence.. In the last two weeks, I keep running into people from the past. One example is a guy I used to have as a room-mate, who offers me a room in his house instantly. However, I can't tell whether he is also a good or bad influence, and if I am not getting stuck in past ruts again (but am desperate to find housing if I decide to stay here). Anyways. Not only am I lost and can't figure out which location to choose to live, I also know that I can't discount these bizarre events that keep piling up with extreme frequency, but I don't know how to read them, and what they're trying to say. Any advice? Link to comment
DanZee Posted August 16, 2018 Share Posted August 16, 2018 Sorry to say, but life is random. The Universe isn't trying to send you a message. But you do have to take control of your own life and figure out what you're going to do with it. You've been sort of floating around for a year or more. Link to comment
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