My first post so apologies for jumping straight in but I really need some advice. My ex partner left me 8 years without explanation. We had a house and two young children together. She was quite young but always wanted a family and home. That was her dream.
Anyway I met someone else, successful and very totally into me which was great.
She has two girls same age as my daughter and son, now 12 and 10. We also have an 8 month baby together.
Anyway my son and daughter effectively grew up with her girls for 6 years together. Holidays, days out etc we were a good unit. Out of the blue in 2015 my son aged 8 at the time said he no longer wanted to stay weekends as he didn't want to leave mummy. We spoke and to save him any distress I stopped his weekend visits. For the last year or so I've seen only for 4 hours a month on a Sunday but when I do see him it's like everything is normal.
Last weekend I proposed trying again with one weekend a month to start and see how we went. He seemed keen on this and I was pleased but when I texted his mum she said he wasn't sure now.
Bearing in mind I've done as much as I can for my children in the last eight years. I've changed jobs, taken lower pay in order to see them. One journey is 40 miles and I do that at least once a week, a Christmas because of a stupid agreement I can do 200 miles in a week. It's not exaggeration to say I've done 1000's of miles in eight years sometimes on very little sleep or if I'm ill. My partner has taken them on so many nice holidays and days out, they want for absolutely nothing.
I'm now at the end of my tether with my boy. I've never let my children down but I feel my boy has really let me down with false hope once again. I know it's not entirely his fault as his mum is manliputive but he isn't 4 years old and surely has to take responsibility for saying one thing then another.
My ex knows I can't do anything as she is within the boundaries of the law in the sense she is not stopping me seeing them.
I'm just thinking now to leave the four hours a month as he obviously doesn't want to come back and when we see him it's very emotional for all our children who obviously want him back. He makes promises he can't keep. I'm not saying he doesn't love me but maybe I should walk away and keep a journal as a friend suggested and show him when he is older and starts wanting answers because as a parent I'm emotionally done in now. Sorry for the long post but I'm trying to put eight years in a nutshell.