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    A poem about my deep, unending depression

    They see her as a sad girl
    As a girl who is lost,
    Who took several steps onto ending paths
    They see her as lazy,
    A manipulator,
    A user,
    & a liar
    They see her as a misfit,
    One who has long left the so called freedom in Christianity
    They judge her, in ways they do not judge themselves

    She sees herself, too
    Looking in the mirror,
    A facade appears,
    Only to disappear upon second glance
    She sees a struggle,
    The constant battle of self-health
    & self-strength
    She sees one who has always tried hard to be faithful,
    To be reliable,
    To be honest about her true feelings...
    She sees the dysfunctional mother
    that she believes herself to be
    She sees someone who pretends to be happy,
    Even though it hurts more when she does
    She sees effort,
    Only to be faded out time & time again by darkness...
    & Still, she sees no one who understands.
    No family, no friends, no therapists, no doctors
    They all just want her to medicate with pills
    Because they cannot truly fathom why or how someone can continue to fall apart,
    Year after year...
    & the battle continues, without end.

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    Exquisite prose. I hope you meet some good people.

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    Thank you so much for your kind words & it looks like I have encountered my first good person!

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    Awww

    May there be many more!!

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    I am sorry some people have to struggle in life more than others. Good luck. Take care.

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