And I have to wonder,
After all the days and nights that are behind us,
The seconds that turned into months;
Even years have now passed.
Yet here I am.
My hands trembling,
Just as they always do.
My eyes - they struggle to meet yours.
For every moment they glance upon you,
My mind;
It takes me to the darkest of my dreams.
The night terrors,
They still awaken me.
At 2 o'clock when the skies are as black as my broken heart,
My body forcing me to choose:
Fight or flight.
Natural instinct.
Do I stay? Do I run?
Do I risk it all for your arms around me,
Do I leave for the sake of my own sanity.
Lonliness may be my only comfort,
When the touch of a man is more terrifying,
Than the knowledge that i may never know love.
The realisation sets in.
I may never know love.