Close to self harm again

I am really really struggling with coping at the moment and finding it hard not to be tempted to cut...already started banging my head against the wall.

I don't know what to do.

Don't do this to yourself, stop thinking about what makes you do this. I used to self-harm myself too, but what did it change? nothing. You need to fight with your mind, be stronger than your toughts.

Hey butterfly, thanks for posting. I'm so sorry you are hurting.

People cut for different reasons, but in many cases it's an attempt to obtain some sort of relief from emotional pain. When you receive a physical injury, the brain releases chemicals to ease your suffering. Emotional injuries are not accompanied by this kind of release -- but cutting can trigger it, and the chemicals help both physical and emotional pain.

I don't know what kind of emotional pain you are dealing with, but cutting will give you temporary relief at best. If you can address the source of your pain, in therapy or with medication or in other ways, you can find permanent relief. Doesn't that sound preferable?

Big hugs, girl.

Thank you for the support. Unfortunately I gave into the urge. I didn't do it as bad as I used to and it has been such a long time. This feels like a relapse. I think you're right gebaird perhaps I should seek help again.

Been here before, it is an absolute nightmare... who do you have in the way of support...? When I was doing it my parents' reaction was always to blame people I associated with, burying their heads in the sand a little bit... or simply didnt want to accept I'd been suffering post-traumatic stress since the age of 7. Do you have anybody you can go to...?

I can only strongly suggest professional counseling/therapy - it's the only thing that will help you (imo). Please see a doctor asap for a referral.