Hello, I am new here.
My boyfriend and I have been together for nearly 5 years. Last August we broke up for a few months. But then back in November we got back together and things were awesome until about early March. He changed a lot for me in order to better or relationship and make things work out. But in march our sex life began to dwindle, which I know for the most part is normal especially for relationships as long as ours. But we aren't married and neither of us have any children. I am 29, and he is 34 years old. He has been married once before, and I have never been married.
Anyway, the reason I am here is because I need some insight. Since our sex life has dwindled, we used to do it at least 3 times a week, and now it's barely once a week, and when we do have sex, it's too short, he cums fast, and he doesn't even take the time afterwards to try and get me to cum. He only apologizes for cumming too quickly. I told him back when we got together that I feel like I at my sexual peak. I know women have their peak later then men. But I have never met a man that doesn't want sex...ever! He has told me he feels like he is low on testosterone, and claims that the reason we were having sex a lot when we got together is because he was on a testosterone booster supplement. He is really into physical fitness and felt like through the years he messed up his testosterone levels from all the supplementation he has taken all these years. But when I talk to him about how it's been a problem that we aren't having sex anymore. His excuse is "oh, we'll, suck it up!" He says he can't afford the testosterone booster he was taking a few monks ago. But recently within the last 2 weeks I have noticed that he has been masterbating when I am not home. I will be at work. And it really upsets me because he is doing it at a time when I will be home in like 2 hours. Why won't he just wait til I get home? I get home from work at 9pm! He also claims that whenever I want to have sex, he is too tired. I don't always feel like that is the case. But I can't argue with him about it. Cuz I can't prove it. But he is making me feel like I am the one that is the problem. He says it isn't. But I don't understand how it couldn't be. I feel like leaving him. But I love him so much, I can't stand it. But everytime I notice that he has jerked off, I get so angry and can't understand why he wouldn't just want to have sex with his girlfriend who loves him and he loves too! I feel like I am just a roommate and a friend. Not someone's intimate partner. I asked him if I need to initiate the sex more. And I have done so, but he turns me down and says he is too tired all the time. It's so frustrating! What do I do? I noticed he jerked off while i was at work to ivht and i cinfronted him about it, and he admitted that he did. We argued about it tonight and he kicked me out of the apartment. This may be the end. But I don't want it to be.