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    That's very true. Good observation. I am the kind of person who thrives best in quieter environments. Even being in a moderately sized city, I need regular time away from it to de-stress.
    Some people do seem to thrive or at least not be bothered in environments where it's people on top of people. To me, that's my version of hell! Even visiting large cities, one or two days then I can't wait to get the heck out of there.

    Yes, it does seem common in some communities to frame disabilities and loss of children within a context of punishment. I agree it's very tragic!

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    I also think it's so awesome you helped kids get better access to resources, Bat! Such important work.

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    Originally Posted by itsallgrand
    I think about stuff like that. I've noticed this huge stress relief since not being at that job, and being in that area of town. Meth addicts everywhere, and I was always looking over my shoulder. The attitude is very much, hey, if you get one over someone, you are so clever. The community is broken down, it's depressing.
    That sort of environment can definitely take a toll. Obviously, different people have different tolerances for different kinds of environments. Some people might not be affected by working with people like that. Speaking for myself, it would definitely wear on me. I think the key is simply to understand what types of things affect you and increase/decrease exposure to those environments accordingly.

    I wish I could find the source for this information, but I read somewhere that oppressed communities have a tendency to discourage and often attack constituents who attempt to achieve better for themselves. I believe I first read about this when I was researching Amish women, who are pretty much the lowest member of the Amish hierarchy. Much of the antagonism they endure is from their own ranks.

    This sort of jealous behavior is often attributed to gender or race, but it's actually a socioeconomic characteristic.

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    That'd be an interesting read, Jib.
    I've seen that first hand. Especially with kids and young adults who try to claw their way out of a dysfunctional community. The community will even follow them across provinces! To drag them back into the folds. It's intense pressure, and usually family. Hard for anyone, but as a young person!?
    I won't go into too many stories, but I have a young woman where we connected, and she still messages me. She goes back and forth, getting sucked into some very bad things. It breaks my heart, as I care about her. A lot, actually. She is smart, has this huge heart, and such a strong work ethic! But she is still trying to figure things out. I just try to be a stable non judgemental support.

    I agree it's not about gender or race, though yes, culture can have its unique impacts. There are strong commonalities amongst groups who have significant break down in the fabric of the communities and families ( often due to many factors).

    Not simple, at all. I'm glad for my time getting a broader view of different experiences and challenges, and I think I'll bring that forward in everything I do.
    BUT, I also think I can do more ( and be healthier myself in the long run ) somewhere else.

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    Originally Posted by itsallgrand
    I also think it's so awesome you helped kids get better access to resources, Bat! Such important work.
    So this was over 30 years ago and I was assigned it (in the sense that it was a government internship, you then interviewed at various agencies and basically chose among the offers) - I was in college and I adored my boss who had been with the agency many years. It was somewhat "grunt work" but yes I felt I was making a contribution. I've done similar work like that after that, mostly volunteer! Thanks for adding to what I wrote -very interesting perspective.

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    Time away to myself is exactly what I've been needing.
    I spent the day clearing dead trees, tending to my fruit trees and my grape vines, and cooking. And now I'm sitting by the bonfire, listening to quiet and a few coyotes in the distance. The sky is light blue, so no watching stars tonight. But it's a great view on a clear night, and maybe tomorrow I can star gaze.
    The physical exertion and simple tasks have calmed me.
    I'll sleep sound, then have my favorite coffee and bacon for breakfast. Bacon...not something I cook very often anymore.
    It's good to have this place to get away, alone or with if I want, and it is mine. It almost got washed away, back into public grabs, to become whatever the next one who paid the money willed it to be. But for now, it continues on the evolution of my family. Same way mom and dad worked their tails off to stake a claim here, I worked my tail off to keep it. Worth it.
    It's very therapeutic.

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    Sounds awesome. Are you away from home somewhere?

    I remember the first time I heard coyotes. I was in Arizona at a dude ranch. It was in the month of March, early evening. When I first heard the yips and howls, I thought it was the laughter and shouts of some people partying nearby. But when I head it again, I figured it out.

    We spent a couple of nights sleeping under the stars among a pack of Border Collies and Australian Shepherds. I thought the dogs would become hostile when the coyotes started howling from across the canyon. But they actually howled right back, and with a lot of enthusiasm!

    We didn't used to have many coyotes in New Jersey, but their populations have been increasing. Lots of people have seen them, even in the more urban areas. I haven't seen any here yet (or heard them), but I've seen evidence of them in the road kill (weirdly). Every once in a while, I'll see a deer corpse that is totally gutted, with its rib cage picked clean. That's a new one around here.

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    Away from the home my guy and I have, and on the property that was my mom's. It's a quiet little village in the country. When my mom was ill, she let us know she was leaving it to us...however, there were huge debts and complications she had kept to herself, and she said " sell it, cover what I had to do to keep the house".
    It was a cluster f/k of troubles, debts, complications but we decided to pay our way to keeping it. I worked three jobs for a time, my bro worked extra too, to pump money into all the costs of securing it. Also had a funeral to pay for, tombstone, lawyer, and a set amount ( not small, she did not have it ) she had in her will to go to her partner.
    Bro and I also had our respective households we were contributing to as usual.
    Somehow we did it. Now it's a getaway, as we work on improving the house and property. New roof this summer, floors, electrical work.
    I don't know what the end game will be. But we weren't prepared to lose our childhood home that way. Not to pay creditors. We wanted it on our terms, what will become. And its very healing to go there. Put value on what they built there, it helps us feels connected.
    Maybe later, we will sell it. Who knows. Maybe not.
    It feels good to be able to take off there as I please as of now. My guy gets a chance to miss me, I get solitude and quiet, and come back refreshed.

    I wrote more than I set out to. I love your story Jibs. Of being out in Arizona, with a pack of pups, under the sky.

    I remember the first time my bf and I went out camping. I adore it. He hadnt done it much, usually went the cabin route. That first night, with a fire going and a growler of beer we had picked up in a neighbouring town, and he's going deep into stories I never heard before. He got right into what to me is so magical about finding a spot and having a little camp. The lack of distractions, it lets you just be. Helps settle things in you , make it seem less complicated.
    So now we tend to do trips that are a mix of solid walls and a tent. I really love it.

    P.S. Do you live in a bigger city in New Jersey, Jibs? How did you begin your love of horses?

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    I love your grit and determination. Your description of your childhood home. We never had one as we were nomadic due to necessity.

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    "I remember the first time my bf and I went out camping. I adore it. He hadnt done it much, usually went the cabin route. That first night, with a fire going and a growler of beer we had picked up in a neighbouring town, and he's going deep into stories I never heard before. He got right into what to me is so magical about finding a spot and having a little camp. The lack of distractions, it lets you just be. Helps settle things in you , make it seem less complicated.
    So now we tend to do trips that are a mix of solid walls and a tent. I really love it. "

    Yes -I love how that triggers depth and sharing -I dated a very reserved guy and - well not in a tent -but we were sort of stuck in a parked car for hours locked out of the house where we were staying and the conversation just flowed including about poptarts (you know the toaster pastries) -not "deep" but deep in the sense of him just being himself, open, flowing. Sometimes you do need that kind of survival type environment to bring that out.

    Thanks for relating all this!!


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