I have a crush on this guy and I don't know what to do. I'm not sure if he likes me back, but sometimes I get the feeling that he does. We have been friends for about 6 months and I've pretty much liked him the entire time. I'm afraid of ruining the friendship or making it weird or awkward if I tell him that I like him and he doesnt feel the same way. I wouldnt want to ruin a friendship, but I'm worried that if I don't say something, I'll never know. I feel like one of the reasons he hasn't made a move on me might of been because of some of the things I've said. One time we were driving somewhere with our mutual friend and our randomly asked if we would have sex. I said "no", he was like, "ummm, no!!" but I was just caught off guard and didnt know how to respond to that question. Another time our friend asked me again with him in the room if I was attracted to him and I was like... "uhhh, i dont think he's really my type" just because it was so awkward. Then a week or two ago, this same mutual friend asked if I would "bang" him and I told him that I wasn't going to bang anyone, I was looking for a boyfriend not something casual. My crush wasn't in the room at the time, but it's possible that he might have heard me from upstairs. It's not really that unusual for my friend to say that kind of stuff, so I dont necessarily think that my crush expressed an interest in me, but I guess it's possible. My friend just likes to joke around like that, he has kind of a dirty sense of humor and likes to make jokes about his friends having sex with his other friends... he also means well though and always is asking me if I found so and so attractive cause he knows I want a boyfriend. I know my crush is looking for a girlfriend, and he knows im looking for a boyfriend, but i think those interactions probably made him think that i was totally not intersted in him.
I feel dumb for not answering honestly, and saying that I wasn't interested in him but my friend made it awkward. I said no because it was right in front of him and I didnt want to admit that I had a crush on him, but now I think I basically told him right to his face that I wasn't interested. I'm not sure if he isn't putting a move on me because he really isnt interested or because of what I said. When my friend asked him about me though, he said "no" too but I dont know if it was because I had said no first or because of the same reason I said no... because we were put on the spot. Maybe he said no, because he really meant no, but I'm not sure. Sometimes I feel like he likes me or does stuff that he thinks will impress me, but I could just be thinking that because I have such a crush on him. I feel like such an idiot. I'm afraid that if I dont say something and there is mutual interest, it will be my fault. If he gets into a relationship, I know I will be kicking myself, but I feel like if he doesnt like me back, I will never hear the end of it from my friends and it will be akward. I dont know what to do... i dont know if should send him a message, or try to talk to him in person, or what.