-Ok we've been in the relationship for eight months I am eighteen and so is she. We both like the same cheesy things and have independent goals. We both tell things to each other and help eachother with problems. Now I shall make of lists of our personal problems
-i am repetitively nice and helpful putting myself before others always....examples is canceling a golf outing with my friend to help teach little kids to play lacrosse for my coach since he was short on exprienced players.
-i had five previous girlfriends three cheated on me, one became a lesbian, and one moved away, all of which I never did anything with worthwhile. So I am a virgin
-i am a goof of sorts sometimes socially awkward which messes with my physical appearance which I am very attractive and girls have literally come to me and hit on me. I have had many foreign girls ask to buy me drinks and well I turned them down. But sometimes I say the wrong thing
- I am a healthy eater...I run allot and work to my fullest to be perfect.
-i am horny and wish to be sexually active
-had two boyfriends ones gay now and the other dumped her cause she wouldn't put out which is horribly wrong and he was a partier which even though its fun I just don't like that kind of life.
- she is lot less horney
-her mom left her with her father as a child so she sometimes considers me an older brother
Ok so after being together a long time we've done things like blowjobs handjobs, fingering and dry hump or as I say wet hump cause I can make her .... well u understand. I am quite skilled at it where I can make her *** so easy everytime. I have out of god know how many *** twice. Her she gushes like no other.
So I brought up this discussion on sex how I would like to do it soon but not plan it. she agrees. (Two months ago btw and well two weeks ago we were pretty much naked (only my boxers and her thong and dry humping (never gets me excited I do it for her I just like being close to her). So after she does her deed she goes well that was fun and starts saying how much she wanted me to put a condom on and she was like I want it I don't and back and forth. By then this reminded me of how my ex was saying this and was doing a guy behind my back...so I stubbornly explain she is teasing me and quit joking so I get ready to take her home.. she says she wasent lying and wants it more and soon. So I was like ok and happy. So weeks pass and bring it up and keep asking her about it afriad its like my old situation. Eventually she. Tells me that that's all I care about and I tell her I give her allot and I love her but I never get allot in return. She gets mad and tells me I shouldn't cause that's not her thing and so I ask her if she was lyong she says no and I say how long were u planing and she like whenever...I told her most guys take soon as two weeks and I feel un appreciated sexually and she's like we'll u don't have to do that but I say it makes her happy that's why....and sometimes I am hornier then others while she is only horny and never starts stuff so its hit and miss and when she wants fingering she doesn't give anything in return.
Well we ended up having an argument on my personal feelings and desires. She is mad like that its a big deal and my sexuality will leave.which is hurtful like I have a disease or a condition and not a big deal that its something normal then why wont she. So we ended up telling me when I talk about sex or anything like that it turns her off. And she's the one that saiid u can tell me anything....so its being a hypocrite. Idk I just feel left out to my friends... and just her buddy not this guy she can be her desire...she is barely horney so its killing me...I ain't one to dump someone over **** like this I understand how it feels and I love her. I just want to know what to do cause I can't discuss what is on my mind about it. So any suggestions besides dump her or ur at fault and u suck or stop being selfish. I have finally convinced myself in a whole I am not good looking and ugly and not someone of her affections.
I have begun to think about telling her I love her but I am not sexually appealed cause thats what she wants. Idk and I cant wait to hear the girls have deeper issues and your selfish you dont love her. Seriously I have stayed by her side through her grandmas funerals her graduation. taken her to work if she needs a ride and helped her with homework and studies.
I take her into account but I feel left out of the equation most of the time.