My relationship is a bit shaky at the moment.
I have issues to open up and trust him, he expects me to commit to him more after 6 months etc.
So our sex life has gone down the hill.
He rejects me.
So on Sunday, we hadn't had sex for a whole week, I was trying as usual to flirt with him, but respected when he said again no. I was still feeling a bit edgy though. Then I was online and made some stupid test that told me I might not be completely straight (I am). Told this to my boyfriend and he answered that wow, then there is still hope for him for a threesome. ?! I must say I somehow lost it then. For almsot two months he has been rejecting me day after day, having sex with me maybe once a week and even then.. well more out of duty than passion. What made it worse for me is that he has been promiscuous in the past and has told me he has had threesomes. So I felt like I cant handle it anymore, like I am clearly not good enough for him..
Anyway, we ended up discussing why he doesnt want to have sex with me anymore and he told me he needs us to be okay as he must feel all the love and good things between us to be passionate. I continued to ask about the numerous onenightstands and how come he was able to be passionate with them without the love/commitment etc. And he told me "With a onenightstand it is easier". By then I completely lost it. What I understood is that it is easier for him to desire a random $&"& at a club and take her to his bed and make passionate sex, than desire me. I really dont know how else to take it.
I asked him to drop the subject and we have been sweeter with each other ever since, ignoring the problem, no sex of course. But now the tables have turned.. I cannot imagine making love with him, I got rejection after rejection and now I feel that I am even below the onenightstands. If I would meet him at a club tonite I would have more chance to feel his passion than now living in the same house, sharing his bed every night.
He says he loves me and I only feel like this cos I have trouble committing and I'm looking for excuses. That if I believe in us more, he will get his passion back and everything will be okay.
Any advise is welcomed, but most of all.. please peopel explain me how it is easier for him to desire a onenightstand than a woman he loves, me. How can it be EASIER for him to have sex with a stranger than make love to me?