Dear Liam

Tomorrow will be 13 years of your birthday and death day. This year mommy and daddy and your big brother can’t go see you because of COVID-19. But you are forever in our hearts. ❤️

Hello sweetheart on Nov 22 you would have been 13 this year. You have your grandpa with you this year. Perhaps you have met.❤️

I read through all of this the other night and ugly-cried. Ugh Seraphim.... Hugs...

I read through all of this the other night and ugly-cried. Ugh Seraphim.... Hugs...

Awww thank you. I know he is in heaven waiting for the rest of us.

Merry Christmas beloved boy we just visited you. 

Tomorrow is 14 years you have been gone beloved . Mom and Dad and your big brother still think of you. Maybe we will make the journey to visit you and grandpa. 

On 6/2/2018 at 11:38 AM, Seraphim said:

One of my other beloveds miscarried on May 15 many years ago. About 20 years ago. 

Wow, I can’t believe this year you would have been 14 because your big brother will be 24 in 3 weeks. Today I am seeing your nana which is almost right beside where you are . 

It is coming close again to your passing . 15 years now. We are healed sweet boy even if we miss you but we are no longer tormented. 
 

It is a long time ago too I had my early miscarriage on the 15th. 

Today it has been 15 years since we said goodbye to you our sweet boy. This day 15 years ago my labour had already started and I knew you were gone . We were at the hospital and you were born sometime after 4:30 in the morning. Your tiny body with your wide open hands and tiny tiny fingers. You had a face so like your dad’s, long delicate legs and tiny toes. I know you are waiting for us with your other siblings and one day the other 3 three of us will join you in our own times. Look out for your big brother from where you are and help keep him safe for me. 💕

What my husband wrote today. 
 

😭❤️

I want to keep up my dear journals. 

We have to go visit you soon my dearest boy. We are teaching what would have been your 15th birthday. 

So mom and dad are planning a trip to home where we just visit those who have passed. Your two grandpas, your great grandparents and great great grandparents and two great great uncles and of course yourself. When we visit with the living there is just no time anymore now that your grandmothers are widows. 

You are covered in the blanket of winter now my darling boy  but Spring will come . 

We have yet to come and visit our beloveds who have gone before us . Maybe I can convince your dad today? Or maybe some day soon. We have you and your 3 grandpa’s to visit. And my two sets of grandparents and my great grandparents and two great uncles . 

My baby boy it is getting so close again to the time of your passing. I can’t believe 16 years have passed almost . 

Pretty soon it is 16 years since you have been gone. Monday is 16 years. 

Today you have been gone 16 years my sweet boy. You were born around 4:30 AM. I can still see your face so much like your dad’s and you tiny tiny little outstretched hands and impossibly long legs and iddy biddy feet. I have a few tears this morning but never fear my heart we are all ok. You have your siblings and your papa with you and we have God and each other down here. 

I can’t believe it 16 years. Your grandpa will be gone 3 years next week. 😓

Next week would have been your 16th birthday. We haven’t been to see you in a bit. Maybe when we see Nana on Saturday for my birthday. Love you my boy . ❤️

I am sad we will be moving so far from where you are buried. 
We all will miss you this Christmas.