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Thread: I don't want to kill myself, but I don't want to live either

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    Originally Posted by 123me123
    the miracle cure is to be blessed with death and God hopefully will remember me today so this ewahtever so called life can be done now thats all
    No the cure is getting out of your head. Isolating yourself from others and just continue to be in a routine of doubt and regret.

    The only cure is to get a new perception of how the world is and what your place is in it.

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    I just saw your post
    Wondering how things turned out
    You know, did something significant change and your life began to make sense ?

  3. 05-11-2014, 03:46 AM

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    Originally Posted by Mr.Zombie
    Thanks for the input, MoonSunStars. It's hard to explain really why I feel the way I do. I have ups and downs, certainly. Some days I feel okay. Other days, I would love nothing more than to cut my wrists open. I feel very hopeless about the future. I'm very pessimistic by nature. I'm so ineffectual and completely unable to change anything by myself. But I also see very little value in life. What's the point of busting your hump all the time just to keep on living? In my experience, there's not that much worth living for. The good things (and there certainly are many good things in life) are vastly outweighed by the bad. I'm not sure I'm able to survive 75% bad just to enjoy 25% good.

    I've completely given up on romance. I have no hope of ever finding love. Sometimes I care, sometimes I don't. But it doesn't really matter, because I don't want to get married or have kids. So if I were to find the perfect woman, she'd probably leave as a result of my refusal to settle down. Where do you find a woman who doesn't want to marry or have kids? There are maybe 4 or 5 in the world. I would like to have companionship, though. I do get lonely a lot. I'm very sexually frustrated too. Way past sexual frustration in fact. I'm almost at sexual apathy. But I'm not the type to have casual sex. I'm not attractive. I can't just pick up a girl and get her into bed. I wouldn't want to even if I could. But I wouldn't want to pursue a relationship just so I could have sex either. So I think I'm pretty just cut out for a life of celibacy. I don't really mind it all that much. I was terrible at sex back when I had a girlfriend.
    It's been ten years, so I'm sure a lot has changed for you. Hopefully you discovered that there's more than just straight or gay sexualities. You could be ace, or a form of ace. Also, there are tons of women who don't want kids and don't want to get married.
    I'm currently feeling trapped in my life too. I get a panic attack when I think about the future, I fall into depression when I think about killing myself.
    I don't know what im doing here. Posting on a 10 year old forum. On a website i've never been on nor will probably ever be on again.
    I feel too immature to be alive. I want life to be fun, enjoyable, exciting, full of love, and I'm not getting that. I have a loving family, but they can only understand so much and be so much for me. Little to no friends. Trust issues. Want to be in love so bad.
    It's like my body is throwing a temper tantrum. If I don't get what I want I'll kill myself. Ridiculous. I was a generally well behaved kid. I don't know why now I'm like this.
    Probably because I'm feeling really ing alone. My best friend is a guy on the internet who I can't get closer to because we both know we're so far away from each other, going further than "internet friend" is a big no-no.
    No one's going to read this, so I may as well just spill the beans here. I'm so ing alone that I have an imaginary boyfriend basically. It's this made up voice in my head that keeps trying to tell me that I'm worth it, that he's out there, that I need to keep going so I can meet him someday. He wants me to not need him, he wants me to find love. It's the best and worst thing.
    Thinking of him cheers me up, keeps me going. But he isn't real. I can't hold him, nor him me. God.
    My life is so boring. It's also too overwhelming. Too stressful that I want to die. Too boring that I want to die. Too afraid to die. Too afraid to live. I feel like I'm going insane.
    Recently had a weed trip that made me see into infinity and really see what it feels like to be in a universe that is nothing. That nothing matters. Still clawing myself out of that hole.

    Who can even help me at this point? Even if all my wishes came true, will that even help me or make me feel crazier because chances are I'd still be sad?
    What the .

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    Thread is 10 years old and the OP has not returned for 9 years.

    RachelRose, it would be a good idea to start your own thread so as to get help/advice on your own situation. It gets too confusing using someone else's thread. Thank you.

    Thread closed.

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