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    I Wanna Take My Life

    Even tho i have been talked out of committing suicide more times than i can count but i still think about it -- i'll be fine and go to the store and walk by something a have the worst thoughts, like i walk into the cooking isle and see the knives and think what i could do w/ one. Even tho I haven't OD in a while i still think bout it -- Worst of all i still think about my plan, where and when and how....
    Sometimes Id like to hide away somewhere and lock the door -- sometimes all i wanna do is take a mixed OD, take my knives - get in the car and leave this hell hole called earth. I just wanna take my life now before i change my mind. I WANT TO DIE!!!!

    I KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN ON JUNE 23 - I DONT WANNA DEAL WITH IT - I WANNA TAKE MY LIFE SO FREAKING BADLY!!!!!!

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    how come????

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    Dont do it ! Go rent the movie "better off dead "instead

    Starring john cusack

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    i just cant cope anymore, im sorry ](*,)

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    Originally Posted by forever_scarred
    i just cant cope anymore, im sorry ](*,)
    Whats your pain ?

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    I KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN ON JUNE 23 - I DONT WANNA DEAL WITH IT - I WANNA TAKE MY LIFE SO FREAKING BADLY!!!!!!

    Whats going to happen June 23, other than my birthday. maybe if you talk about it, you'll feel better.

    I have been where you are at, and I know how it feels to muster all your strength to hang in there. I know it sounds cliche but things can and do improve eventually.

    You're only 19, you have so much life ahead, so much to enjoy, so much to see. Death is permanent, once you're gone, you're gone, there is no turning back.

    When the thoughts become really intense think of some place, thing, or person that makes you feel good. Start thinking about other things that bring you joy, or used to, instead of fantasizing about your suicide fantasize about a happy situation for you.

    Another thing you might want to try doing is setting small goals and giving yourself credit for every little thing you do. For example a goal could be as simple as : "I am going to get up and go to work". These goals sound silly, but the idea is build back up your self esteem and self confidence. you can set bigger goals for yourself as you gain better self esteem. Each little goal will build up your self esteem little by little.

    If you ever need to talk please PM me.

    Take care

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    my moms death a year ago "june 23" from ovarian cancer - i watched her 8.5 long agonizing years of hell

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    I know it hurts. But what if tomorrow something wonderful happens?
    What do you do on your free time?

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    nothing wonderful happens anymore -- im on 7 forums - music - just started singing again

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    "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" Author unknown.

    The short version: I went through a very long period in my life wanting to kill myself. I thought it, I dreamed it, I wished it, and I obsessed on it. I never talked about it, so thereforeeee no one knew. When I was pre-teen, I never thought I'd make it through my teens. When I was in my teens, I thought I'd never see my 20's. I made it through my 20's, but I wouldn't live to see my 30's. Guess what? I'm 34 and I feel as though I have overcome my need to kill myself.

    A funny thing happened one day. I woke up one morning and realized I had a problem. That was the first step. Admitting to yourself you have a problem. I knew that I was depressed and decided to do something about it. For me it was simple. I took anti-depressants, surrounded myself with positive people, got into being a healthcare worker, found a faith that suited me and convinced myself that life is worth living. Everytime I had suicidal thoughts, I remembered the saying, "Suicide is a permanent solutiuon to a temporary problem."

    I'm no longer on anti-depressants; I have an awesome job; kids that love me and a girlfriend. Life isn't perfect though. I have an ex that drives me nuts, my finances are out of control to the point I can barely breathe and I have no life outside of work and seeing my kids once or twice a week (if I'm lucky). My life (the way it is now) would have driven me to suicide, but it hasn't. I don't even dwell on the bad stuff anymore, I just deal with it.

    I can comfortably share my story with anyone that wants to or needs to hear it. If I can help save one life, then my pain was worth it. I hope you, or anyone that reads this post, can one day be in my shoes...sharing your story and helping someone else change their mind about wanting to commit suicide.

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