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    I SELF INJURE... Help me!

    I am only 12 and I have been cutting, scratching, and occasionally burning for the past year. At first, I scratched. I was 11 years old and my best friend ever had just moved halfway accross the country. I didn't know what I was doing except that I saw her doing it and she said it was what she did only once a month and its bad to do. Naturally, being the rebel I am, I didn't think I would get hurt, so I said Hold on a second. I tried it, counting each time up and down up and down up and down. I didn't know it was self injury until last month when I did a school report on it. I started out just doing it that once, but I still have a reddish purple mark from it a year ago. I did it again a month before school started, and again the first week of school. It didn't hurt anymore, so I decided to take my razor and whip it accross my skin. I did it 6 times deep in my arm and they looked like cat scratches so I got away with that one wearing short sleeve shirts. A month later, I thought that I was obese because I suddenly was popular and every one of my friends had a bf but me and I was fatter than all of them. Tht is when I stopped eating. Three weeks, almost four with just water and diet sodas. I started cutting daily. I decided to use a pin and just go over my cuts 25 times each. I brought my pin everywhere with me. I wrapped it up in hair bands so it looked norman and didnt poke my theigh. Those didnt hurt as much anymore, so I decided to take a knife. This was my first bad cut. I brought it to my ankle and pushed down hard. I dragged it accross my skin revealing a thick red stream of blood. (If this is too graphic I am sorry) Then I brought another knife to my wrist. This one had ridges. It went slower, but deeper. A month later, I decided that wasn't enough and went crazy. I found my dad's saw and did a slice. That one is practically open still and that is from 5 months ago. Then, Hanukkah came rolling around and I decided to light the candles. I dropped the match on my hand and it felt really good. My mom got scared cause I was sitting there with my hand under a lit match. Everything was okay though. I then began to burn myself with a heater that gets to 120 degrees. I cut, scratch, and burned of a daily basis. Then, my friends found out. They tried to get me to stop and for 2 months I did. Later though, one of my teachers started to scare me. They walked up to me and put their arm around me. Then they started to rub my back and shoulder. He did this a few times, and then he started complimenting me more than other kids. I decided to skip class and cut myself for the full 45 minutes. I told everyone who found out about me 2 months previously that I stopped, but one of them still knows. She has been with me on everything this year. Anyways, lately I have been stealing Exacto knifes from my science teacher's room. I feel bad for stealing, but I hate the teacher, so quickly the feeling goes away. I then drag the blade accross my arm, hip, back, leg, or anything else. I really want to stop, and right now I have a horrible urge to cut, but I dont want to because i need to stop. Can someone please help me?

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    please...?

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    It sounds pretty bad I have two friends that used to cut and I've started to myself. There's another on here that may beable to help better than I but I will do what I can. What causes you to cut? try keeping a small note book with you at all times and a pen when you feel the urge to cut write down you're feelings at that time. If that doesn't seem to work try something else and keep trying it until you find something that does work.Find someone you can talk to easily and that you trust. Don't be afraid of getting help if you truly want to stop you're going to have to. Here's a website that may link removed

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    You got some good advice.

    Here in Japan I have had several students dealing with this issue, and encouraged them to write research papers about self-mutilation (I`m an academic writing teacher) to try to understand better what is going on. As a result of my students` efforts, I think I understand and might be able to help a little bit, even if just to listen when you need to talk. Since I`m in Japan, I`m often online during the middle of the night in the US, so just feel free to send me a private message anytime.

    And take care, ok? The world needs more nice people and it sounds as though you are one of them.

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    hey
    i'm here for you, we all are. you're not alone, remember that. try your
    best to stay strong and get through this, because i know you can. i've been
    there. make sure you stay away from everything that can cut you. get rid
    of it, throw it away. tell some people about this so that they can help you
    too. stay away from anything that could trigger you. watch good movies,
    write, read, listen to music, TALK TO SOMEONE, exercise, go for a walk, etc.
    never be afraid to ask for help, because there are people out there that
    can help. it's wonderful you want to talk to us, but there are other people
    out there too i promise. you're going to be ok. if you do end up cutting,
    remember, stay away from wrists and scary places like that. please visiti
    this site, i think it can help you out some
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    Self-mutilation is a self-expression of feelings of lack of control over your life.

    It is similar in nature to substance abuse, and compulsive addictions.

    The bright side to this is that you can switch your compulsive behavior to a more positive variety of self expression.

    I highly recommend a creative outlet of some sort -- drawing, writing, poetry, music, etc. Feel free to keep it private and personal, you don't have to show it to anyone if you don't want to.

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    Some Guy is right...and remember that EVERY time you put off hurting yourself and change to another activity, even for a little while, you are helping your brain to re-construct the neural pathways that will help to protect you from the urge to self-injure in the future. At your age, your brain is very flexible, and you are interested in many things, so pursue whatever interests you, big or small, and keep a list of other things to do when you feel stressed...and it`s nice to know that not only will pursuing various interests help to build your character, skills, and self-esteem, but also actually helps your brain to develop in a way that will protect you from harm.

    Best wishes to you!

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    thanks

    thank you all so much for all of your input and help with my problem.

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    I'm not entirly sure what to tell you because i too cut and it does not sound as bad as yours but it is starting to scare e and now my blade is dull and i need to find a new one but i don't know where i could get one. I've tried so hard looking but my razors aren't doing anything for me anymore, i need something bigger, better, deeper, and i can't find anything! if you could help me that would be cool, and do you know if kitchen knives actually work because i have never tried that and i would've thought that they weren't........ so ya any help would be appreciated, im going out of my mind with nothing to cut with!

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    unexpectedvictim57

    Its not exactly good to be asking about cutting when a person is trying to stop. its a temptation and its rude.

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