gardnergirl2

This has been hard for me as you know. I thought we had a real friendship. It Has just taken time to realize that we didn't. I was informed that you " cared about my welfare". I'm not sure how I was supposed to pick up on that. Was it the stone cold reaction at the funeral home or the lack of even a mere thank you when I got your w2 to you? Somehow, I felt dehumanized as opposed to " cared about". I tried to let you know about deaths, cancers, etc. No response I am a strong gal ( they say lol) and I will reach my goal. The ebb of a broken heart has been replaced by the flow of optimism that I will find the real deal, that I will be loved, and that I already am by a host of true friends who have never turned their backs on me. I have someone in my life as well. I've been very honest with him about the pain. For the first time in 2 years, I feel the pain dissipating and new love growing in my patched up heart It is scary, but I think everyone deserves to exit their struggles at some point. I am finally beginning to do that. I am sure you find the amount of time it has taken perplexing, but I am equally sure you don't know the value of real love. You don't recover over night. I wasn't Able to follow the one year prescription bc when you ceased to be my friend, the band aid was ripped off the wound and I started all over again,this time mourning the loss of who I believed to be a true friend. You should have never spoken to me as a friend if you were going to turn around and diss me again. That is not right. You don't hurt someone twice for no great reason. I understand the reasoning behind no frequent contact, but not the total ostracism. To not even speak to me if you run into me? The journey of this pain was long, yet I realize many people have much worse things to contend with of course. It was the first time I was unable to broker peace between myself and someone I once cared about. I will always care about you, and although I think that possibly that old theory of " what goes around comes around " is alive and well and the green grass fades over time, I don't wish that on you. We do all pay for how we treat people, that's for sure, but I honestly wish you all the happiness in the world.

I never dreamed we would be enemies, but we are. It's sad. But I won't break no contact. What good would it do? I fought a good fight and tried to be a friend to you. It meant nothing to you. I am healing everyday and yes, the process has been so long. Too long. You don't deserve a girl like me. What you've got is what you deserve.

I would have never watched you struggle financially and not helped. I would have never sat my lazy butt in your house and not worked for months on end. I only hope one day you realize what you threw away. You are not worth one more tear to fall from my eye. You chose a low class skank, and that is what you got. It may seem great right now, but trust me, you will pay for it in the end.

You are stupid. I loved you, and maybe we were just " too different ", but the one you have now is "too sorry". You are on the verge of financial collapse, and what is she doing to help? Nothing. Won't even work, and even if she does, she won't pay any of the bills. At least with me, you had a worker. I imagine when you go belly up, she ll be gone. Should have picked better my friend. I miss you as a friend but won't beg anyone to be my friend, including you.

I am sure you are with your new gal tonight. That's fine. Well, not really, but we'll say it is. I didn't respond to you today and I am very proud of myself. I told you that I will cease to exist for you and that is what I have done. You don't deserve a woman like me honestly. You have got the kind you deserve. We'll see how she plays you.

You act like you don't even know who I am now, and that you are better than me somehow. You are not. I don't know how you hold your head up either, but you do. With no problem.

I reactivated my facebook page yesterday to look at some pictures that my friend linda had posted. And I did look at your page. Nothing bad on it or anything, but I noticed that your buddy had made a remark about being friends with an ex is like going back to jail or something like that. And he noted that he put it on there especially for a friend. Of course, you indicated that you liked it. I was puzzled by this because I have never known you are a two faced person. When we first broke up , it was you that suggested friendship. Yet, on a public type forum in order to bash me, that is not the indication that is given off. You know what I mean? I imagine that none of your friends know that. And you promised me that you would never again allow me to be besmirched like that . But, its just me, who cares. That is wrong. So, if that is how you really feel, then I am out the door. Out of your life forever. No friendship no nothing. You may now celebrate. Be sure and tell your friends so they fan join in the fanfare. Also, I won’t be looking at your page anymore, so any further attempts to embarrass or belittle me will not reach their intended target.,

I hate it when people are like that too, musical. I hate to hear you just need to move on. As if I am purposefully holding myself back from that. geez.....

love it! u go girl!!!

ditto for me. Could not have said it better.

First of all secondchance, that was beautiful... Sad, but beautiful. I hope some man feels that way about me one day. Now, to my ex, I miss you every hour of the day and I wish I didn't. I almost cried in the grocery store. My dad is in the hospital, but of course, you don't know that. Those are the things I would tell you if we were speaking. You are busy speaking to the new girl I am sure. The one who meets none of your standards, but all of the sudden, that is perfectly ok. I never thought you would hurt me the way you have. I never thought you would be as cold as you are . I don't know now since we don't speak. You had a good woman; you know it and I know it. My ex husband was here Sunday to see out son, and you know what he said? That you, like him, will regret it later. To hear this from him meant a lot to me.....and you know what? I believe he is right.....

Oh yea, I forgot....I am sure when you pull the emotionally cold crap on her or when yall have a disagreement and you don't speak for days on end, not even a fight just a disagreement, I am sure she won't put up with it as long as I did. Not to mention the ever famous "dunno" answer when I ask what you think about us. I am sure she will get "dunno" as well. Won't like it either I bet.

I do miss you and I still love you. I guess you will always be in my heart. But, I won't contact you. In time, perhaps, we can be friends. But, you should contact me. I was not perfect; no one is. But I never hurt you. I never stood you up. I never didn't show up. I never dumped you. I never broke your heart. You live in a dream world where you think the "perfect" woman is going to appear, put up with all your crap, and never ask for anything in return. Good luck with that. I did all I knew to do to love you. I love G and miss him too. I wanted to be a positive influence in his life as he enters his teenage years. Oh well, maybe "she" will be. Don't know. I truly hope that one day u look back and regret how you took me for granted. I was too "square" becuase I have morals. Well, you benefitted from that bc every week, while you were gone, I was faithful. I didn't so much as speak to another man in a flirty way, much less do anything else. You felt tied down to a good girl. Well, here's your chance to get a not so good girl. However, when she cheats, goes crazy, acts completely psycho, stays drunk....whatever....don't cry about it. You made your choice.

Today was hard for me too. I actually cried in front of my boss!!!!!!How embarrassing. But, she was nice about it. I didnt go into great detail. Just told her that I was grieving a loss in my life. It seems like yesterday was a good day and then you go backwards...I hope this is normal....

I love this!!! you go girl!!! and pass that salmon this way when you are done!