confusedandsad

i don't think I will ever understand someone like you. You gave so much at first.. and then ripped it all away. I did not feel as you did in the beginning but I was honest to you. I always was. Maybe you where the one that was not honest. Maybe everything you stood for and told me in the beginning was a lie. You lie well then. As soon as I gave you my heart you did not care anymore the same way. You distanced yourself farther and farther away and would not tell me why. You made it look like it was other things standing in your way. You made everything into drama. Everything stressed you out. Spending time with me was too much work. I did not request much... just what anyone deserves. You are an immature jerk. No wonder why you're 40 and alone. You might keep finding people that want to be with you... the false you... because you put up such a front. But you will probably F*** that up too because you are so arrogant and stuborn. You don't realize it's YOU that is the problem. You throw away good relationships... and good people. You make yourself out to be such a great guy. You make yourself out to be a man's man. It's all bull. You are just as screwed up and manipulative as the other crap men I have come accross. Thanks for the heartache ASS****. Thanks for stomping on me and making me feel bad or that there was something wrong with me that you treated me like S***. GO F*** YOURSELF

It has been 17 days since my ex broke up with me. and 10 days since he last contacted me. I wish he would come back and want to make this work...

My boy friend broke up with me two weeks ago. We were having a good weekend and when I tried to get close to him, to be sweet and intimate… he initiated play fighting. He got out of hand and hurt me. I got upset and went to sleep. He got up and told me that he is not making me happy, and went on about other things in his life that are unsettled right now. He is 40 years old and I’m 27. We dated for almost a year. None of us have kids and have never been married. He was very loving and super attentive the first 3 months of the relationship. I told him back then that I needed to go slower and that I was not sure how I felt about him yet. About two months ago he told me that his feelings have changed for me… that he feels less for me and he thinks that it’s because I had him at arms-length and that I was standoffish with him in the beginning. He felt I was dismissive and mean at times. ( I never felt that way – never knew he did either). I was not mean to him… but he is very sensitive. Like if I tell him not to go right and go left on the street because we are trying to find our way to somewhere…. He’ll take it as if I’m telling him he does not know how to get around… or that I’m ridiculing him. He became snappy with me over the last few months/ stopped giving much attention/ and would not really try to make me happy. He became mean, and he would show almost no intimacy. He was abused by his mother physically and emotionally. He was abandoned by both his parents. He tried to live a better life by moving far away, and getting into the Marines. He has been out of the service for some time now. But I could see how he wears his old scares. He obsesses about working out and his looks. He is so focused on his job and on himself that he completely started treating me bad. He is very vindictive. If he feels that someone has wronged him, he wants to get revenge… even if it as insignificant as me waking him up in the morning earlier than he wanted to get up. He will get me up early the next day because of it. But what happened? Do some men do this kind of stuff for no reason… was it my feelings toward him at first… or was it his abusive life he had that is making this happen? He contacted me last Sunday, and sounded really friendly and talked about all the things going on with him. But since then… no call … no contact.. no nothing. I have not contacted him at all either. I don’t know what to do...