My husband and i have been to gether 4 about 1 year, im 3yrs. older than he is, and boy what a difference that makes, anywayz we jumped the broom in april, and it seemed like heaven, but now a little more like hell. He has since then become very abusive physically, as well as mentally, and yeah he did show it before we married, and its not that i thought that i could change it, but more like i could luv him better than anyone prior to me, hoping that he wouldnt respond 2 things in such a negative way, but boy talk about back firing, not only does he disappear 4 4/5 days at a time, but when does finally reappear he gives me bogus excuses, and when hes gone there is a lost of communication because he tends 2 turn his phone off 4 days. The worst part about it is that he trets me w/no respect, calls me names, ive caught him cheating w/ numerous women, which if he does even metion me its just 2 warn them that im "crazy"? whatever?, but he tends 2 think that because were married that we are binded 2gether 4 life, and its just to the point of no return its like im stuck in the twilight zone, we dont sleep togehter and when we do decide 2 (2x a month) its disguting, like he raping me, i luv my husband very much, and i definitely didnt marry him 2 divorce him, but i have actually strted the divorce proceedings and have one year left 2 file, dont get me wrong, im not saying that he doesnt luv me but, he definitely not in luv w/me, cause he doesnt even know the meaning of the word, its more like obsession, stalking, and the crazy part is that i know 4 a fact that he sleeping w/ other women, and honestly hoping that being that thers a 99.9% chance that we will never be right that 1 of these women would just take him awat from me, because other than that he will never leave me and im stuck 4 life..............deep isnt it?........so please if u have any good words of advice, or just wanna talk im damn sure crying out 4 help....................................................