I find it very hard to talk about this, i think that im afraid people will just think im a cold person, and i dont really have anyone to talk about this. I am ashamed to say it , but im so extremely and terribly lonely.
I had a dream once were i was with all of my family, everyone was chatting and talking to each other, i went up to my uncle in my dream and confronted him with my loneliness. In the dream he said to me: if you dont want to be lonely, you have to do effort and step towards the people.
Now ill admit that was the best advice i ve ever had in a dream. But in real life the problem haunts me at a deeper level. You see (and here comes the real underlying cold problem that im afraid people will judge me on.)
I have no interest in other people, whether they live or die, i simply dont care, and i dont do not care because im evil hearted or whatever, i just have no interest in what other people are saying or doing. I stay silent at work most of the day unless someone talks to me, i sometimes hope people at discord say something to me, but i feel when i need social contact it stays awfully quiet, i dont really know what to do about this.
Any help is greatly appreciated