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  1. Lieutenant Dan
    Talked to my ex for 5 hours last night. At the time it was so nice, we talked like we used to, he wouldn't let me stop talking to him. Told me how nice it was to talk and all that. I've woken up this morning feeling horrible, and I bet he doesn't even want to get back together with me. Hah. I'm an idiot. I hate him so much Why did he have to talk to me for 5 hours?! Where do I go from here?
  2. Lieutenant Dan
    I had another dream last night, this time about me having to choose between my ex and the guy I'm currently "seeing". I choose my ex. Ugh. I talked to my mom last night, and decided that, yes, my ex is going to come home from college and start some crap with me. It's plain as day, especially now that he's talking to me. I don't want to deal with it. A part of me wants to get back together with him, but a part of me just tells me to move and get something better. I keep telling myself me and moms "gut feeling" is wrong, and maybe if I keep telling myself that he'll just forget about me and won't start anything?
  3. Lieutenant Dan
    Good for you! Whenever I talk to my ex, even when it's just "friendly", I always have ulterior motives. Usually it works haha
  4. Lieutenant Dan
    I don't regret it at all! I had a nice talk with him today about school and when he's coming home and whatever. He was really nice to me and actually asked about me which he didn't last time we talked. He used to be really stuck up and rude to me, and not ask anything about me. So it was a nice change of pace to have a good talk with him.
  5. Lieutenant Dan
    I wake up every morning with a song in my head. Usually the most random and obscure one my brain could possibly think of. This morning I woke up singing the song from As Told By Ginger, that old cartoon from the early 2000's. All morning long, through the shower, through everything, it's still in my head. I get on facebook to put it as my status along with "Anyone remember this song?" but, before I got the chance... low and behold, my ex has this song as his facebook status! How random, right? I literally sat there for a few minutes going, * * * ? Seriously? How is this possible?! So I finally gave in and commented on it "I literally, swear the freakin god, have been singing this song since the moment I go up. Weird!". I don't expect anything back but, really, how weird!
  6. Lieutenant Dan
    I'm going down, fast. I was doing so well! And now I'm back to how I was. A month and a half later. I had a good cry last night, and I woke up this morning thinking about him. He was so bad to me at the end, why do I miss him so much. I just wish he would come crawling back to me so I could laugh in his face. I feel like that would really make me feel better haha
  7. Lieutenant Dan
    Suddenly I realize why he's constantly updating his facebook status and doing all the same things I do on there (Ex. adding the same pages, doing the same quizzes, etc). So I've decided to just disappear from facebook for a while, I know it'll absolutely grind his gears, just as it bothers me a bit when he disappears for a day or two. Only I'm disappearing for a week. We'll see how this goes.. hahaha
  8. Lieutenant Dan
    I'm pretty sure I'm going to break NC today. I woke up this morning thinking about a million other things, and then I realized that I don't think about my ex first thing anymore. It actually took me a good 15 minutes before I thought about him. This got me thinking... no more butterflies? No more pain in my chest? I started thinking about the last week or two before we broke up and how it sucked, how I was not attracted to him at all, how I was avoiding anything sexual, and I was basically evil to him because I didn't really want to be with him. So I think I've decided to try LC and see what happens. Besides I need someone to help me fix my computer and tell my how to register for my math class that's giving me hell. Thoughts?
  9. Lieutenant Dan
    I miss him a lot today. I got stuck staring out my window at the snow this morning only to have a flood of memories come back to me. What I would do...
  10. Lieutenant Dan
    I think that with time I'm starting to see how he feels about the whole thing. It's like I've stopped twisting his words around and I see that he's hurting as well, maybe not as much as me, but he is. How sad and unfortunate that we had to end up this way I'm 1/2 done with the 30 days, and I think I may go for more. The more I think about it the more I realize that after 30 days he probably still won't be ready to talk to me, even though I was the one who initiated no contact, and he said he wanted to talk to me as soon as I was feeling better about it. I'm sure that NC is just pissing him off because I'm not chasing him, which he always wanted me to do. At this point it seems as though the hurt has gone away, but I still miss him. But at least I'm getting somewhere, right?
  11. Lieutenant Dan
    Most of my days are not this good! I've just been staying busy and what not. It seems to be working.
  12. Lieutenant Dan
    It's like a cake walk these days. I woke up this morning and didn't even think about him until about an hour after I had been awake. Aweeesome
  13. Lieutenant Dan
    I went out last night with a new guy. It feels good to, er, get some (although not EVERYTHING) again. However I came home feeling like crap and missing me ex. Today a mutual friend told me a few things that my ex told him such as it was a "mutual decision" to split, that he was "really upset" about it and that "we were only broken up for now". What a fool! He thinks I would take him back after that? Please!
  14. Lieutenant Dan
    Day 7 - Ex's sister and dad came to my work. It was really awkward, but they talked to me and were really nice. I miss them I came home last night and bumped into my favorite picture of my ex. Shed like, 3? tears and left it at that. I've got a date tonight, so I'm moving forward. Go me?
  15. Lieutenant Dan
    Day 6 - I woke up feeling good this morning. A new guy (actually 2!) have appeared on the scene and now I have something to take my mind off of it. Although I did have a sex dream last night, it sucked, just as sex with him did. Hahah. This isn't so bad after all.
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